PlasticFace
My story is in my about me, if you'd like to know.
- Feb 16, 2023
- 95
Why does it never get better?? Why was I lied to?? Why was EVERYONE lied to??
"The tremors will get better over time." I havent been able to get out of bed in weeks because my legs are practically vibrating. I have to CRAWL to go to the bathroom or feed my cat. Thank god I moved everything to the bottom floor.
"The anxiety is temporary, you just need practice with social situations." Why do I always feel watched and judged and like I cant breathe?? I stand in front of my WINDOW and just the knowledge that anybody could see me out the window is petrifying.
Im so fucking skinny now I can't eat or drink more than once every few days.
Why do I have nothing better to do than complain. I'm always complaining its so annoying. I convince myself to finally ctb and something happens and then I get this rush of feeling like life is worth it and itll get better.
IT NEVER GETS BETTER.
crisis.
"The tremors will get better over time." I havent been able to get out of bed in weeks because my legs are practically vibrating. I have to CRAWL to go to the bathroom or feed my cat. Thank god I moved everything to the bottom floor.
"The anxiety is temporary, you just need practice with social situations." Why do I always feel watched and judged and like I cant breathe?? I stand in front of my WINDOW and just the knowledge that anybody could see me out the window is petrifying.
Im so fucking skinny now I can't eat or drink more than once every few days.
Why do I have nothing better to do than complain. I'm always complaining its so annoying. I convince myself to finally ctb and something happens and then I get this rush of feeling like life is worth it and itll get better.
IT NEVER GETS BETTER.
crisis.
