Venting Never write your thoughts down. EVER*

[camusfan_ig]

*And if you do, MAKE SURE IT'S HIDDEN

I was reckless.

The other day, in my journal I wrote down some thoughts I was having during my suicidal ideation. The thing is, I usually don't even journal, and I thought no one would care enough to move the piles of stuff that the journal was hidden under.

Turns out I was wrong.

Quite literally the NEXT day, my stepmom found it. And read through it. She later expressed to me that she was sorry, that she shouldn't have done it. But what's done is done. If I didn't already have bad trust issues, I definitely do now. Cuz of this whole event, I had a very long conversation with her and my dad which I won't get into much. My stepmom tried to get me counseling but I refused and so did my dad. I think they gave me some okayish advice, but the rest of the conversation, hearing them talk,, I just felt. Idek man. Dumb. Upset. Angry at them and myself. Such a mixed bag of emotions.

One of my worst fears is someone finding out something they aren't supposed to. And it happened. It fucking happened. All cuz I was stupid and didn't hide it well enough. Well, I know now. From now on I am being EXTRA careful, with this, and with everything else in my life.

Please learn from my mistakes. If you have a journal, or anything that expresses your thoughts, KEEP IT HIDDEN.

 

[Gangrel]

Honestly i don't know if i can place the blame on them too because she might have thought it was just a wathever thing you had wrote, you're right, stuff like this should be hidden. Want a suggestion? write it here, lots of people use the sanctuary as a diary, you could use your profile posts too

 

[Alpacachino]

It's best to keep an online diary that's locked on your phone with a fingerprint and PIN code. Simple.

When I was a kid, my sister recommended me to keep a diary. Do you know why she did this? So that she could read it. I'm not even kidding. One day when I was going into the restroom, I saw something flitting into my bedroom.

I came out from the restroom a minute later and I went to my cupboard and took out my diary from underneath the pile of clothes I had hid it under. And I could see the clothes had been shifted a bit and I knew exactly what had happened. I went down and I saw my sister with a nervous look on her face, trying to act like she was watching TV.

I stopped using a journal from that day onwards.

 

[bunnƴ]

what i do is i hide it in my drawers under my clothes it works cuz i have a messy drawer with clothes i dont wear

 

[EmptyBottle]

I use password protected libreoffice documents sometimes... text notes on Linux, and in Samsung Notes for the less sensitive stuff. If it is too sensitive, it tends to not get written, and forgotten, which can be better sometimes (coz sometimes even I don't want to read it later).

There is literally a password protected document called crap.odt for random (non diary) stuff. It's got random coloured text, straight out of the 'gutter', and is rarely opened and written to, besides today, I haven't written to it since September 30th.

Only I know it's contents (from the AI text, to the random phrases, to some extra text) and I think it'll stay that way.