Need to prepare

[stuckinthemud]

Hi everyone

Im new here.
I've been unwell since 2016. I'm not sure if there are many like me, I was disabled by an ssri medication (serotonin syndrome & akathisa). I did heal a lot but then I got Covid Jan 22 and it triggered my akathisa back.
Then abusive relationship broke down May this year and I got so much worse. Kindled myself.
I have severe DP/DR, anhedonia, brain fog, SI, visual snow, apathy, depression, non stop thinking loudly, and other stuff 24/7.
I have been diagnosed with PTSD, long Covid, depression and more recently BPD.
I am waiting to see if I'm a candidate for ketamine infusions and want to try some nootropics out but I can't see this getting better anytime soon. It will takes years if I do heal. I don't feel human, like I've been erased.
I've never been this bad and I'm truly hopeless. I no longer have any quality of life. Hanging on for my 5 year old daughter but I can only do this for a short while.
I've joined to prepare myself and want to exit in the most dignified way possible with minimal trauma to family.
I will likely try and gain SN if I can come across it (I live in UK).
does anyone have any trusted sources ?
Thank you, L

 

[DT2007]

There are two. One in Portugal and ome in Malaysia

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you've been through, it's cruel how people have to suffer so much in this existence. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you find what you search for.

 

[stuckinthemud]

That sounds really horrible what you've been through, it's cruel how people have to suffer so much in this existence. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you find what you search for.

Thank you, I appreciate your comment. Yep life can be very cruel to many of us it's very unfair but it is what it is I've had to accept this.