needwaytohell
Member
- Apr 2, 2025
- 6
Hi everyone,
I'm 21 years old currently still a student in final year, hopefully by end of year would have a job (hopefully far from my home). I don't like this life people around me are cruel and have taken advantage of me in every single way possible. I will CTB someday for sure in future and hopefully I can share my experience of doing the same. I stumbled across this community yesterday and for the first time I genuinely feel happy.
Went through stan's guide on SN method which was pretty detailed on steps but I have some doubts.
Is it ok to skip painkiller (I want to feel the pain before leaving and I considered SN because after taking the step no looking back from it)?
I have low blood pressure if I don't eat well it only worsens so does it help in successful CTB ?
Is it ok to take a scoop out SN and store it in airtight container (I want 0 clues that I am doing it want to remain low key about it)?
If I vomit out is it basically given unsuccessful and what would be side effects (I dont want to rush to hospital in case I fail and live with it)?
Should I hold my heart while dying to give an illusion that I had an heart attack to make it look natural (I don't think i'll be examined after I die) or any tips to make it look natural?
I currently am still exploring here so nothings confirmed but rest assured someday I'll CTB and find peace.
I'm 21 years old currently still a student in final year, hopefully by end of year would have a job (hopefully far from my home). I don't like this life people around me are cruel and have taken advantage of me in every single way possible. I will CTB someday for sure in future and hopefully I can share my experience of doing the same. I stumbled across this community yesterday and for the first time I genuinely feel happy.
Went through stan's guide on SN method which was pretty detailed on steps but I have some doubts.
Is it ok to skip painkiller (I want to feel the pain before leaving and I considered SN because after taking the step no looking back from it)?
I have low blood pressure if I don't eat well it only worsens so does it help in successful CTB ?
Is it ok to take a scoop out SN and store it in airtight container (I want 0 clues that I am doing it want to remain low key about it)?
If I vomit out is it basically given unsuccessful and what would be side effects (I dont want to rush to hospital in case I fail and live with it)?
Should I hold my heart while dying to give an illusion that I had an heart attack to make it look natural (I don't think i'll be examined after I die) or any tips to make it look natural?
I currently am still exploring here so nothings confirmed but rest assured someday I'll CTB and find peace.
