Need help

[Ayeitsalaska]

my mind gets so confusing. my thoughts convince me i want to kill myself, but i am so young i have so much future and promise, i just deal with people in my mind that want me to die and want me to be in pain. i have been to the hospital 20 fucking times. at this point in my life i'm young, attractive, have some decent friends. my mind just never stops. i just want to help others, especially animals. that's what i want to do with my life is stop the suffering of others but i cannot stop the suffering in my own mind. it's subconcious. these people in my mind hate me and want to hurt me and torment me and won't leave me alone. i first tried to kill myself when i was 6. i'm almost 19 now. is there anything that can help? i've had countless therapy so it's not helpful to mention it.

 

[About_to_Go]

I see that you said you've been to therapy. Have you been to a psychiatrist?

 

[Ayeitsalaska]

yes i see one every 3 weeks

 

[About_to_Go]

yes i see one every 3 weeks

I'm not sure what else you can do. It sounds like you're doing all the right things by going to therapy and seeing a psychiatrist– you should be proud of that! I hope that you can find peace soon, however that may be.

 

[felix]

my mind gets so confusing. my thoughts convince me i want to kill myself, but i am so young i have so much future and promise, i just deal with people in my mind that want me to die and want me to be in pain. i have been to the hospital 20 fucking times. at this point in my life i'm young, attractive, have some decent friends. my mind just never stops. i just want to help others, especially animals. that's what i want to do with my life is stop the suffering of others but i cannot stop the suffering in my own mind. it's subconcious. these people in my mind hate me and want to hurt me and torment me and won't leave me alone. i first tried to kill myself when i was 6. i'm almost 19 now. is there anything that can help? i've had countless therapy so it's not helpful to mention it.

I've been in the hospital 6 times. How much debt do u have?

 

[DownInaHole]

I can relate.

My mind (almost?) never stops. I've come to appreciate that trait though.

Have you tried Kratom? It can relax you.

 

[Eren]

In my point of view you have to be sure before CTB, before the doubt better wait.

As for therapy, have you tried other psychotherapists? Maybe you've found unprofessional psychotherapists.

Hugs.

 

[LastDay]

Have you had any past trauma? If yes have you been through it with a therapist

 

[Johnnythefox]

my mind gets so confusing. my thoughts convince me i want to kill myself, but i am so young i have so much future and promise, i just deal with people in my mind that want me to die and want me to be in pain. i have been to the hospital 20 fucking times. at this point in my life i'm young, attractive, have some decent friends. my mind just never stops. i just want to help others, especially animals. that's what i want to do with my life is stop the suffering of others but i cannot stop the suffering in my own mind. it's subconcious. these people in my mind hate me and want to hurt me and torment me and won't leave me alone. i first tried to kill myself when i was 6. i'm almost 19 now. is there anything that can help? i've had countless therapy so it's not helpful to mention it.

What is your diagnosis?

 

[Ayeitsalaska]

i do have trama but i have no memory of what happened. and therapists cant help me with that. what about kratom? can you tell me your expierences with it

 

[21Neberg]

i just want to help others, especially animals. that's what i want to do with my life is stop the suffering of others but i cannot stop the suffering in my own mind. it's subconcious. these people in my mind hate me and want to hurt me and torment me and won't leave me alone. i first tried to kill myself when i was 6. i'm almost 19 now.

We have a lot in common. I like to help others too, though I work with the elderly instead of animals (although some of them behave like animals sometimes...)

Being attractive, being smart, being kind... the most broken people always have the most beautiful qualities.

What helped me was working with those elderly people. Maybe if you found a job where you could help animals like you said you want to, that could help you feel better.

 

[felix]

We have a lot in common. I like to help others too, though I work with the elderly instead of animals (although some of them behave like animals sometimes...)

Being attractive, being smart, being kind... the most broken people always have the most beautiful qualities.

What helped me was working with those elderly people. Maybe if you found a job where you could help animals like you said you want to, that could help you feel better.

I have none of those qualities

 

[21Neberg]

I have none of those qualities

If you truly don't have any of those (which I don't believe...) I'm sure you have other great qualities Felix!

 

[felix]

If you truly don't have any of those (which I don't believe...) I'm sure you have other great qualities Felix!

I have nothing :(((

 

[Macc Lad]

my mind gets so confusing. my thoughts convince me i want to kill myself, but i am so young i have so much future and promise, i just deal with people in my mind that want me to die and want me to be in pain. i have been to the hospital 20 fucking times. at this point in my life i'm young, attractive, have some decent friends. my mind just never stops. i just want to help others, especially animals. that's what i want to do with my life is stop the suffering of others but i cannot stop the suffering in my own mind. it's subconcious. these people in my mind hate me and want to hurt me and torment me and won't leave me alone. i first tried to kill myself when i was 6. i'm almost 19 now. is there anything that can help? i've had countless therapy so it's not helpful to mention it.

My heart goes out to you.....always find it so sad when someone so young wants to end it......but i do understand! x

 

[Funkbunny]

You have a strong desire to live. That much is obvious (only my opinion). Counselling can only accomplish so much, I strongly believe psychiatry would be the better option.

 

[Logic]

my mind gets so confusing. my thoughts convince me i want to kill myself, but i am so young i have so much future and promise, i just deal with people in my mind that want me to die and want me to be in pain. i have been to the hospital 20 fucking times. at this point in my life i'm young, attractive, have some decent friends. my mind just never stops. i just want to help others, especially animals. that's what i want to do with my life is stop the suffering of others but i cannot stop the suffering in my own mind. it's subconcious. these people in my mind hate me and want to hurt me and torment me and won't leave me alone. i first tried to kill myself when i was 6. i'm almost 19 now. is there anything that can help? i've had countless therapy so it's not helpful to mention it.

What have you tried and what are your symptoms?

 

[Ayeitsalaska]

medication and conventional therapy. symtoms are destructive thoughts, depression