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ThirtyThr33z
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- May 31, 2023
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I'm currently trying to CTB, as I write this. I previously had a partial hanging attempt but was saved and had to serve time in a psych ward. I'm more scared of being saved than surviving because the last couple months, following my first attempt, have been the worst months of my life and I know if I fail again it'll get worse. I've looked into other methods but I don't have the resources and I find partial the only method available to me right now, and I really need to CTB tonight. I'm 18 and live with my parents so the possibility I get saved again scares me a lot and every time I've tried my SI kicks in because of this reason. I'm not scared of death I'm scared of living and facing the consequences of another attempt. Im too much of a pussy to let myself pass out and I need help