LosingHealthFast

LosingHealthFast

Soon floating..
Sep 7, 2018
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I'm very ill and want to be prepared - not doing well - may not have a lot off time to prepare before I get so ill I can no longer do it. I dont want to suffer for weeks or months till I die, I want to be prepared. In my experience my body can handle a lot, but my health issues come with mental problems which are VERY unpleasant.

I very well get the people here who just want to die over mental problems even if they are physically healthy - in my opinion severe mental problems are MUCH worse than beeing disabled but NO mental problems. (speaking from experience)

What is a reliable site to order amitriptiline? How much do I need? Do I need something to not throw up and if yes what?

Does anyone have the info by hand? Please help! Your help would be most appreciated since my concentration is so poor, my memory is poor and I may not have much time to research. If you could help me find the info, and would want to help, please help!

I want this as a backup method in case I get too ill to hang myself. Since ordering may take time, want to have it at home as fast as possible as opposed to researching it for weeks. Once I get a hospital uptake I may not have the chance anymore. Not a 100% sure if they would let me get home. Have a good idea where to hide it SAFELY.

Other suggestions are welcome too, but jumping, train etc are no options since I am disabled. Most buildings high enough are protected and I can baely walk use a wheelchair.

Already made papers saying I dont want to be reanimated and everything. The papers are with someone I trust, who thinks its just for a natural death, got copies myself too. I know they will do the right thing.

Am researching hanging since it has a higher succes rate and I would prefer it since I better know what to expect than with chemicals. But may not get the chance, either because my hands will get too weak or because I am at a hospital.

Think N is too unreliable with all the fake sellers and long ordering time, which I think with amitripitline probably is not the case, since its a common antidepressant. I live in europe.

Other suggestions are welcome too. Wanna take it with zolpidemtartrate and valium to dampen any pain it may cause. Have that at home and looking to order MORE. Wanna float off sedated, for which these are a pleasure. If no other options are available.

I still hope to be around for long, but am realistic. And having prepared things will give me rest to enjoy whatever time is left, may it be long or very fast.
 
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