misamisachan1234

misamisachan1234

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Dec 14, 2024
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hi, i live in a place wherein i have very little access to CTB methods. the only thing i can think of is CO poisoning by using charcoal, but im worried that it'll cause harm to others as the house that I live in are attached to other houses. there are a lot of holes in my house and im afraid that even if i covered them up CO will still pass through them. based on my research, they apparently also pass through walls so I'm really worried about that as I dont want to harm other people

the last time that i attempted was around 2019, i had no knowledge of other CTB methods so i tried suffocating myself using the curtains that I have in my house, but survived because of SI. i remember my vision getting dark before i freed myself.

i also cant afford other methods such as SN and it's illegal to own firearms here without proper license and training. im also worried about SI so i dont really want anything that is painful. i also live with my family so i dont want it to be time-consuming in case they find me while attempting. is there anything that i can do?
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Welcome to the forum!

As long as u live with your family and you're not alone there's not only a danger to others with the CO method the risk to be found too early is simply too high. You also have to make sure to have a room sealed as best as possible to keep the CO inside. The smaller the room the better it is. A small tent is probably the best.

Here's a CO guide:

 
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misamisachan1234

misamisachan1234

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Dec 14, 2024
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Welcome to the forum!

As long as u live with your family and you're not alone there's not only a danger to others with the CO method the risk to be found too early is simply too high. You also have to make sure to have a room sealed as best as possible to keep the CO inside. The smaller the room the better it is. A small tent is probably the best.

Here's a CO guide:

hi! thanks! but im not really sure if i can go outside for too long with a tent. they'll get suspicious as i dont go outside that much, plus the only way i can have access to a tent is by ordering it online (to which theyll also get suspicious of because it will be a large parcel). im still only in college and living with my family so they want to know about my whereabouts. there are also no places near me, nor do i know places that i can set up a tent on. but thank you anyway! ❤️
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I also don't have access as well, it feels so cruel to me how it's made inaccessible to painlessly die, I wish for the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never exist again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you search for.
 

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