Need help picking a method

[PlasticFace]

I'm getting ready to CTB soon and I'm unsure of a method. I don't really care about pain or messiness. Anything that will happen quickly and is sure to work, I'm open to trying. I've been really nervous about failing another attempt so I haven't tried in a while. I've tried hanging, guns, pills, heroin, and I even resorted to trying to slit my neck and haven't succeeded yet. My only strict no is anything that uses guns. I don't think I'd even be able to get one (legally at least) if I wanted to.

I live alone, so I don't have to worry about anyone getting suspicious. I have money to blow on supplies if I need it. I already have breathing issues so it might be pretty easy to just leave my gas stove on. I wanted to do the exit bag method but I tremor too much so I don't think that would work. I also live in a wooded area so I probably wouldn't be discovered for a few days, maybe weeks.

 

[buyersremorse]

id say it's something you really have to think through. nothing rash or uncertain. when in doubt; sodium nitrite.

 

[Ozi]

I'd suggest jumping off a tall building, if you don't care about messiness. for better results, find a building that's 10+ stories / 110+ feet tall and try to land headfirst. you could probably die from shorter, but 10+ stories headfirst should be a guaranteed death. I'd recommend SN, but you said it needs to happen quickly,

Anything that will happen quickly

which SN is not. As said in the SN mega thread: "The PPH claims that, during a monitored suicide with SN, the patient was unconscious at 12 minutes and dead by 35. However, some sources claim that SN poisoning might take as much as 8 hours to kill, probably due to low dosage." If you are okay with falling asleep and never waking up again, I'd say SN is the way to go.

 

[missingpeace]

Wow, how is it you've tried so many methods but are still here :( How very heartbreaking for you, why did you fail the past attempts? It scares me to think that it is so hard to kill oneself. I will personally be attempting full suspension hanging with the hopes of going unconscious quickly. I've watched alot of suicide videos and it feels like this is something achievable if I fight through the initial struggle.

 

[PlasticFace]

Wow, how is it you've tried so many methods but are still here :( How very heartbreaking for you, why did you fail the past attempts? It scares me to think that it is so hard to kill oneself. I will personally be attempting full suspension hanging with the hopes of going unconscious quickly. I've watched alot of suicide videos and it feels like this is something achievable if I fight through the initial struggle.

I've talked a lot about my gunshot so I won't go all through it again but as soon as I got home from the ward after that attempt, I tried to hang myself with a belt. I went unconscious but the latch broke off of the belt and I woke up on the ground. I grew up in a house full of heroin and I tried to pump myself full of it and sleep on my back but I just ended up getting sick and having an infection in my arm from reusing the needle. I took a shit ton of my mom's prescriptions as a kid because I thought it would kill me but it instead put me in so much excruciating pain, that I resorted to taking a bread knife to my throat and my mom found me before I could hit anything important. I've thought about trying hanging again but I have some things I need to do before I can CTB so I definitely have time to think things over. I hope you succeed and have no complications.

 

[missingpeace]

I've talked a lot about my gunshot so I won't go all through it again but as soon as I got home from the ward after that attempt, I tried to hang myself with a belt. I went unconscious but the latch broke off of the belt and I woke up on the ground. I grew up in a house full of heroin and I tried to pump myself full of it and sleep on my back but I just ended up getting sick and having an infection in my arm from reusing the needle. I took a shit ton of my mom's prescriptions as a kid because I thought it would kill me but it instead put me in so much excruciating pain, that I resorted to taking a bread knife to my throat and my mom found me before I could hit anything important. I've thought about trying hanging again but I have some things I need to do before I can CTB so I definitely have time to think things over. I hope you succeed and have no complications.

That's awful, I hope you get peace very soon and your next attempt will be your last one. <3

 

[GasMonkey]

 

[letsmakeitagoodworl]

I'm so sorry your situation (just being alone even) makes me really sad. I was gonna make some suggestions but even tho I believe pep should be able to take their lives sometimes I just feel too... bad to make suggestions. Also im not an expert at anything so my suggestions would probs be useless. I was gonna say about the jumping.. that could be really traumatizing for others unless you knew a remote location with a high enough start height... and usually people underestimate how high something needs to be

 

[FuneralCry]

Failing ctb sounds so horrific to me, that is exactly what I fear and I hate how we exist in this cruel world where we are restricted access to more reliable ways to leave, as humans we deserve the option of a way to exit instantly and painlessly. But anyway I think that after all it has to be a personal decision deciding what method is best, this can only be decided on the individual and it just depends on what is able to be accessed. Of course there are no easy answers to this and it's very unfortunate how suicide has to be so difficult but I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[Who]

I'd suggest jumping off a tall building, if you don't care about messiness. for better results, find a building that's 10+ stories / 110+ feet tall and try to land headfirst. you could probably die from shorter, but 10+ stories headfirst should be a guaranteed death. I'd recommend SN, but you said it needs to happen quickly,

which SN is not. As said in the SN mega thread: "The PPH claims that, during a monitored suicide with SN, the patient was unconscious at 12 minutes and dead by 35. However, some sources claim that SN poisoning might take as much as 8 hours to kill, probably due to low dosage." If you are okay with falling asleep and never waking up again, I'd say SN is the way to go.

How about a 12-story building? And would we still be able to die if we havent fallen headfirst? I want to ctb by jumping, i really do, but idk bro its just impossibly difficult. What makes it worse is i cant get any SN either. So... Ya. Just stuck in this body rn.