Need help ctb.

[Neverfeltdeader]

It takes so much fucking courage to ctb. I have so much respect for everyone that's successfully kts. I'm here lying on the bathroom floor bleeding from the cuts I've made, noose around my neck, yet not dead, not even close. It's so hard to go through with it. I have no will to live and I'm all alone at the moment so I cant think of a more perfect moment; nevertheless, I know that I will remain alive living a life I hate. How can I gain the courage to go through with it? How?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as all I personally wish for is to be gone, it feels so cruel to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence, I'm always wishing there's the option to just simply die in peace and never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.