Hello guys this is my first time posting on here, bare with me english is not my first language, but I need some advice (hopefully someone answers lol). so i plan on ctb very soon and I don't have a date because i'm still deciding on my method in a way and i am going to further explain why.
So, i plan to ctb by hanging full suspension with a polyester rope from my closet rod in my room, i've tested it already and it took me about 15-30 secs to fall unconscious so i assume it'll work but i've seen a couple of threads/ comments that my legs shouldn't be touching the ground but my legs were kinda touching the ground (i'm about 120 pounds and i am 5'3) for reference. will my plan succeed even if my feet is touching the ground slightly or will i need to move my rope a bit higher so i'm not touching the ground?? also how do i get over my Si instincts?? i need to be sure that this works and i succeed because i don't want to live anymore at all due to personal reasons so please if you see this please share your opinions and any advice would be helpful.
also my friend who is (21) i'm (20) brought me a gun (firearm) for protection, and sometimes my minds wonders if i should use it to cbt, because it'll be quick and painless, and that's what i wanted my method to include but then again i always remind myself that i can't, because i don't want to leave this earth knowing that i've left my friend traumatized and full of guilt because i'm sure she'll blame herself.. i know hanging is also another reliable method so i've decided to just go with hanging, do you guys agree?? I really need opinions on this topic because i've been going back and forth with myself, and if i did ctb with the firearm it would be a gunshot to the chest, so even then i might as well just stick to hanging because if i plan right i'll succeed and I won't leave this world knowing that i did that to my friend.
is hanging quick & painless really?? i mean i almost lost consciousness but i quickly took the rope off my neck so i didn't really experience it fully, thank you guys so much in advance for all your help and advice.
So, i plan to ctb by hanging full suspension with a polyester rope from my closet rod in my room, i've tested it already and it took me about 15-30 secs to fall unconscious so i assume it'll work but i've seen a couple of threads/ comments that my legs shouldn't be touching the ground but my legs were kinda touching the ground (i'm about 120 pounds and i am 5'3) for reference. will my plan succeed even if my feet is touching the ground slightly or will i need to move my rope a bit higher so i'm not touching the ground?? also how do i get over my Si instincts?? i need to be sure that this works and i succeed because i don't want to live anymore at all due to personal reasons so please if you see this please share your opinions and any advice would be helpful.
also my friend who is (21) i'm (20) brought me a gun (firearm) for protection, and sometimes my minds wonders if i should use it to cbt, because it'll be quick and painless, and that's what i wanted my method to include but then again i always remind myself that i can't, because i don't want to leave this earth knowing that i've left my friend traumatized and full of guilt because i'm sure she'll blame herself.. i know hanging is also another reliable method so i've decided to just go with hanging, do you guys agree?? I really need opinions on this topic because i've been going back and forth with myself, and if i did ctb with the firearm it would be a gunshot to the chest, so even then i might as well just stick to hanging because if i plan right i'll succeed and I won't leave this world knowing that i did that to my friend.
is hanging quick & painless really?? i mean i almost lost consciousness but i quickly took the rope off my neck so i didn't really experience it fully, thank you guys so much in advance for all your help and advice.
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