Nearly did it one night

[FoxInWaiting]

About a week ago I made plans to leave.

I had a night where all the dread of life hit me at once, I collapsed from the stress and almost passed out.

We recently lost our family pet, and on top of it, a very disrespectful neighbor was blasting rap music late at night and he's right on my side of the house.

Thankfully, he got evicted by the land lords for his behavior. We had to call the cops on him 3 times to shut the music off. I don't care if it's not PC to say it, he was a ghetto piece of trash. Sitting there, being disrespectful and confirming every stereotype in the book. Liquor bottle near by, reaking of menthols, sagging pants like he's in highschool, constantly in arguments with his girlfriend, behaving like someone who grew up with no father. Had no sense of discipline, respect, integrity, nothing. A man child, blasting degenrate music and refusing to turn it off, like an angsty teen trying to rebel against their parents. Pathetic thug piece of ghetto trash. I dont care if it's not PC, thats what he was acting like.

And it just hit me that night....this is gonna be my summer.

Loud music every day, no peace and quiet, dealing with a disrespectful and potentially dangerous induvidual living next to, working a dead end job, living paycheck to paycheck, this is my summer.

Our house continues to fall apart, our dog is gone, this is no longer a home.

I'm not gonna do 7 months of this, I have to have an air conditioner in my window so I cant drown out outside noise.

I'm done.

I made the decision to attempt CTB later that day........then I got a phone call

I, and many other neighbors, sent numerous complaints to the company that owns that home, over weeks, and they called me back, saying they're evicting him.

So, I cancelled my plans for now.

The house next to me remains empty as of now, and the people who will move into it are gonna be an old couple with no kids, so most likely quiet people.

I guess I can stomach being here a bit longer.

How long? we'll see.

I have a trip with my dad in september, maybe I'll make it past then.

Cant see myself making it out of the year, nor do I want to

The existential dread of living this directionless life will no doubt overtake the relief I feel once again

But it's good to have a small victory

 

[yyytry]

I'm so sorry your family dog has passed.

I would be pissed too, if I was in the middle of mourning a pet and someone else was making loud noise all the time. That would put me into a rage, don't matter who they are.

I hope your dog had a good life. They are the most special animals…

 

[Doombox]

That's a major victory! As someone wearing noise cancelling headphones right now because of a loud neighborhood, I think your victory is huge. I know it feels like a drop of water in the desert with so many other things being painful, but it's still huge.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah, this is the world we're living in now, where too many others have zero respect for anyone else in this world. All they care about is themselves. I'd call the cops on them every 5 minutes until something got done about it. There's a old saying that their rights end where yours begin.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

From the way you are saying it seems as if you are saying growing up with no father is a bad thing and the way he behaves omg is like of someone I know.I have neighbours that play music where i live and tbh I don't really care much about it as long as it's not at night and for sure your neighbour can be and will be easily evicted if he is playing rap music that loud as you say.

Good for you, you can call the cops and they can help you but I always see those crime documentaries and almost in all these cases they are just outright useless and act when it's too late ( like when the victim is dead).

You seem as if you have some strong vendetta against your neighbour and It reminded me of a wannabe rapper who just fits and behaved just the way you said your neighbour behaved (except for the thug part) but the only thing is that wannabe rapper has a father who had an affair with the "housekeeper" Whilst being married to the mum so I don't know if that's the reason why turned out that way, with his filthy mouth always calling out how others are so ugly even comparing some of them to animals like he is good looking himself ( hardly).

I don't know if your neighbour is like this but this wannabe rapper always beg for friendships over and over again and even calling the person he is character assassinating to the people he called the biggest snitches in the world his best friend. He wouldn't even do it to her face bur rather hide it behind the computer and a skirt of his "mupengo", so primitive and so uneducated.

The wanna be rapper should have not been helped at all and he should have suffered with his rotten mouth like what my mum said and he wouldn't have been to be able to travel and move somewhere where he is living right now he wouldn't have been to do it if it wasn't for the "most evil person in the world" who he was calling his best friend to her face. No wonder none of his family members helped him for nearly 10 years and yet they were all working. He wants all these other people "varungu" as he said he didn't trust and the biggest snitches In the world to join in his dog fight hahah! Mr wannabe rapper didn't he say himself not to trust them "varungu" but now he runs to them and say all these nasty things about the person he was criticising these "varungu" to.

Congratulations to the small victory that you speak of.

You sound so angry and I hope you heal and find peace with whatever you are battling through.

Now I understand why you want to ctb because dealing with someone that you have just described like the wanna be rapper that I just mentioned sounds so exhausting and like a nightmare to say the least. Don't be anyone's punching bag. Funny to me this wannabe rapper was blaming his mate for ruining his and mine's friendship and yet he is saying all these nasty things about me behind my back . He wouldn't even dare to say it to me. What a nasty piece of work like what my mum said he is.

I would want to ctb if I were you too.

Good luck

 

[Aisley]

Well, there's some good timing on the tail end of some shit timing.
Sorry about your pup. We know from day one that we'll outlive them, that we'll sob and wail when they go, but it's still worth it, isn't it?

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

Well, there's some good timing on the tail end of some shit timing.
Sorry about your pup. We know from day one that we'll outlive them, that we'll sob and wail when they go, but it's still worth it, isn't it?

Even if you outlive anyone, aren't we all going to die, as death is inevitable and no one even can guarantee for sure when they will die (even the greatest like Kobe Bryant died unexpectedly leaving all his money that he had worked hard for) unless if it happens to be when you commit suicide.

Also what a strange thing to say for someone who wants to die and who is on a suicide forum talking about how they think outliving someone is a success.

Fact - no one knows when they will die, this is something that no one on earth knows.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's awful how other people can very easily make existing much worse. But anyway I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.

 

[Aisley]

Even if you outlive anyone, aren't we all going to die, as death is inevitable and no one even can guarantee for sure when they will die (even the greatest like Kobe Bryant died unexpectedly leaving all his money that he had worked hard for) unless if it happens to be when you commit suicide.

Also what a strange thing to say for someone who wants to die and who is on a suicide forum talking about how they think outliving someone is a success.

Fact - no one knows when they will die, this is something that no one on earth knows.

...? Sometimes, Ryeo, and I don't know how to say this delicately, but sometimes I don't think you have the cognitive wherewithall to be here. To knowingly consent with sound mind, to your own suicide. Someone might actually end up with a case against this place for all the red flags you planted that went unmentioned. But maybe it's just a case of severe adhd, cuz you never read the whole post that starts a thread, then we end up down here, hashing out painful details.
What do I do with you? XD.
Sorry, op.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

...? Sometimes, Ryeo, and I don't know how to say this delicately, but sometimes I don't think you have the cognitive wherewithall to be here. To knowingly consent with sound mind, to your own suicide. Someone might actually end up with a case against this place for all the red flags you planted that went unmentioned. But maybe it's just a case of severe adhd, cuz you never read the whole post that starts a thread, then we end up down here, hashing out painful details.
What do I do with you? XD.
Sorry, op.

Hahah it seems as if you are watching me on here ???

Am I wrong or am I right???