name two things that makes it hard to live your life | recovery

[Painless_end]

1. Neurobiological issues ( I can't get more specific than that)

2. See above

 

[NasiGoreng]

Severe anxiety and no support system

 

[Beeper]

1) mental health challenges (bipolar disorder)

2) the mess(es) that I created in my life due to mental health challenges (manic episodes)

 

[motyxia]

1. Conditions that make me dependent
2. Having to depend on people that make me want to CTB

 

[whywere]

1. My autism.. not once was i ever told that its oks to be different etc.. instead looking at me as someone or something that needs fixing.. i was told that i can be myself but thered be a price to pay..

2. Stuff that happened in my past.. im cant get past what has happened to me ,feels sad that im unable to tell the truth to my parents ,since i half said it when in primary school but then just lied so i feel really bad for all that.. i just feel like that my family would disown me if i were to tell them.. I'll never be free from all this

3. Food problems.. is not really a problem for me perse but i feel like is a bit of a problem for others.. you cant eat in every restaurant you want cause you have to make sure the restaurant will have something for Simba (me) .. that and when i was in social group some years ago when was in a party they went "yuck i dont get you" when i explained to them..

4. Skin picking disorder.. on the one hand i want to stop scratching but on the other hand.. is like as if i like doing it i don't know.. seems my family is affected by this ,eg mammy constantly tells me to stop scratching myself etc.. when i usetoo work at 1 point the head of cashiers came up to me and said that my cuts/scars on my hands were bothering some of customers and offered me a pair of gloves.. from that day on id come to work with both my hands bandaged so i had customers ask me about it etc.. before doing that customers barely noticed..

5. Chrones Disease.. i would take longer in the toilet doing poo during work (from time to time) and the manpower there did not like it at all.. even when i clocked out to do my toilet it still bothered her.. resulted in her telling me stuff etc etc and that im not taking a pill to sort the problem etc.. so i fired myself ,this leads me to believe that probability of a place hiring me is close to nill at this point..

Thats all for now

HI! Your post broke my heart as we are all the same and believe me everyone has issues and to be picked on and/or looked down on is just plain wrong period.

I have always thought different and a lot of people, like at work, would look the other way when i was around and i was excluded from work events all the time.

You are a very kind, loving and you have a beautiful soul about you as you think of others and also you do not want to hurt/bother others either.

A person such as yourself is a diamond in the rough and unlike so many other greedy, self-centered jerks out there, you bring a sense of well being and positivity to others around you.

I really care about you and you are a good friend to me as I really like being around folks who can see with their mind and not just their eyes.

Sending you lots of hugs and kindness with a weeks worth of sunny blue skies to enjoy.

My best to you friend,

Walter

 

[damned]

bored to play that maze game, i only want my soul to die and going back in the emtyness void.
i can help some poeple to save the world and i find no one,
the only thing i find is poeple help me destroy it, i just had enough of that that of joke
poeple around me want me to die
but they are stupid enough to believe that my death will free them
and they don't have the will and valor to be honest and help me to save it
this is helpless
no one is worthy enought, if i can,. i will just desapear and if i can be part of void
i prefer to be tranfered in another galaxie for aways from this space and time
this is just a prison of hell filled with illusion of madness

 

[Scribble Fan]

1. PTSD
2. Complete lack of social skills

 

[Panna]

Adhd and anxiety

 

[cloudnone]

The biggest problem I face is that… nobody wants me. I try so hard to be kind to everyone around me and treat them like kings and queens, and I still end up as an outsider. I'm never anyone's first choice. Or second. Or third. I'm barely their friend.

Chronic Pain is another one too. I have a connective tissue disease that causes a lot of pain and will eventually probably make it so I can't walk properly, if at all.

I also suffer from Anxiety, PTSD and depression, but those are less important.

 

[damned]

1. PTSD
2. Complete lack of social skills

it's no drugs. just 4 can of 355ml of 5% alcool, asking myself what's inside that in 2021.beside sometime,reading this i asking myself if i'm real to say things like that

 

[starrynighty]

-BPD
-severe anxiety
-self image issues
-self harm history for many years
-eating disorder
- PTSD from previous attempt, childhood abuse, and traumatic event.
-Severe Depression for years
-Toxic parents
-Lack of any support
-Separated with wife and love of my life I've had for a decade
-financial instability and knowing I'm going to have no where to live in my future
-chronic pain that I have to live with

Far more than two but my brain can't even get it down to which two would be the most.

 

[meetapple]

Being the object of social hatred
lack of self esteem

 

[noaccount]

1 - Anywhere I move there would still be schools there </3 Schools are jails

2 - Fascist recruitment in the industry I work in

 

[Manaaja]

This.
World.

If I lived in a nice magic world where magic was used to solve all the problems and anything was possible, I wouldn't be here.

 

[netrezven]

1."It's not paranoia when people try to kill you for real" - it's hard to ged rid of that historian talking about Caligula.
2."Stupid people are the most dangerous" - had that from my own experience.

 

[Kennish]

My body and clothes. My body is uncomfortable to be in. And it's uncomfortable for me being in clothes. I hate this life.

 

[Phill]

Social anxiety and depression.

 

[waterstrider]

suffering from extreme trauma
having no privacy
alcohol

 

[stellabelle]

Please be specific, "I hate myself", "i feel worthless" is not specific enough.

You may have many reasons, but this is about the top two.


Examples ;

Depression
Anxiety
Addiction
Chronic Pain
Terminal Illness
PTSD
Eating Disorder
Obesity
Appearances
Criminal Records
Money Issues
No friends
No job
Lost of a love one
Covid

Surviving narcissistic abuse and not having a trusted family member or team of support and early childhood intervention to help me succeed in life.

I've struggled with
Depression
Anxiety
PTSD
Eating disorders
Money
Lack of employment
Lack of friends
Lack of supportive relatives.

My father was a good man. My mother was the problem. I wish that things could have changed from about age 3 going forward.

I've been "too old" for this shit to be going on. The cycles of abuse were never broken.

They are "now" but that's besides the point.
Being "set up" so badly so many times really really damaged my self esteem and ability to move forward.

 

[N2Narcosis]

1. Trauma. All throughout the day I'm remembering one thing or another that happened to me. Or even if I don't remember the trauma I'm stuck with the aftereffects and not knowing why. I hate being in class and having to just grip onto something and squeeze to block out the thoughts.
2. Anger. I'm just so angry about what happened, about what people said and did, about what people didn't do. It's just hard not to let that effect me and it throws a spanner in the works.

 

[$nowLeopard]

Socially autistic
Depressed
Loser
Can't get laid
Bitter
Underwent massive stress and my skin quality looks like I'm 26 when I'm 18

 

[trianglesplayhouse]

Number 1, I am trans. Absolute fucking hell with myself alone and especially with other people. Can barely ignore it anymore. Nearly no one respects me as a man and I do not pass well.

2, NPD (narcissistic personality disorder). Not great, and really not great when you know you have it. Essentially, it's not being able to be vulnerable with anyone, even yourself and when that facade breaks, you completely crash.
The crashes are horrible. Will not leave bed and I will constantly self harm if I have enough energy. Longest crash I've had was back in Feburary - March, I developed a full on ED in that time and nearly CTB.

I've been doing ehhh lately, not bad enough that I can't move but not good enough to wanna live. I'm gonna try and get HRT and see if it helps. If it does then I suppose I'll continue living until it doesn't.