name two things that makes it hard to live your life | recovery

[luten]

Please be specific, "I hate myself", "i feel worthless" is not specific enough.

You may have many reasons, but this is about the top two.


Examples ;

Depression
Anxiety
Addiction
Chronic Pain
Terminal Illness
PTSD
Eating Disorder
Obesity
Appearances
Criminal Records
Money Issues
No friends
No job
Lost of a love one
Covid

 

[Mentalmick]

Depression
Anxiety
Addiction (self harm)
Eating Disorder
Appearances (I hate the way I look)
Lost of a love one (mother)

 

[luten]

Depression
Anxiety
Addiction (self harm)
Eating Disorder
Appearances (I hate the way I look)
Lost of a love one (mother)

thanks mentalmike, if I remember correctly, you have a problem with your throat, is this the reason for the eating disorder?

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

1. I think things through on my own.
2. Anhedonia without any counterbalances.

 

[Mentalmick]

thanks mentalmike, if I remember correctly, you have a problem with your throat, is this the reason for the eating disorder?

Not really no, it just makes it uncomfortable. I used to be 18 and a half stone and at 5ft6 I was as wide as I am tall. I spent so long dieting it did something to my metabolism and one day I woke up with no appetite and I stayed that way. I only eat about 950 calories a day, 1200 if I eat a lot of sweet stuff. I'm obsessed with calories.

 

[luten]

Not really no, it just makes it uncomfortable. I used to be 18 and a half stone and at 5ft6 I was as wide as I am tall. I spent so long dieting it did something to my metabolism and one day I woke up with no appetite and I stayed that way. I only eat about 950 calories a day, 1200 if I eat a lot of sweet stuff. I'm obsessed with calories.

It makes life difficult. Cant say that I dont count calories, I do, but not in an obsessive way.

 

[WhiteDespair]

ATM

Nicotine
Lack of Sleep
Unresponsive MacBooks

Otherwise I'm doing pretty good.

 

[TessB]

BPD
Toxic parents

 

[luten]

ATM

Nicotine
Lack of Sleep
Unresponsive MacBooks

Otherwise I'm doing pretty good.

one pack a day?

 

[Breakout92]

I've got a lot of things wrong mentally, but I know that the mental things can probably eventually be fixed. So here's the things that can't be fixed instead, that I'd have to just learn to live with if i want to recover:

1. Heart condition. My heart frequently skips beats or makes extra beats due to an electrical problem. It's not fixable with medicine, a pacemaker, or anything. I get poor blood flow, frequently find myself dizzy and lightheaded, it makes it hard to sleep.
2. A problem with my leg ever since I got hit by a car. I've only been offered pain killers for it and I'm too scared of addiction and dependence so I don't take any. It's not a constant pain, but after exercise or if i don't sit with my knee in just the right position it does hurt and feel strange. For example it usually hurts while driving because of the position my leg has to be in.

 

[WhiteDespair]

one pack a day?

Vapes. Don't have any true measurement for it. I spent a lot of money on it in the last 3 months.

 

[saltshaker]

Alcoholic + Bipolar

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

1) I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really REALLY hate myself.

2) My self really hates me back.

 

[Last chance]

1)Loss of love,she is constantly on my mind even when I finally get to sleep.
2)Depression,feeling utterly hopeless about the future and that even if this pain does go away it will return further down the line yet again.
3)Anxiety

 

[Marktheghost]

Loneliness
Crap social skills

 

[Moose.000]

PTSD
Major depressive disorder
Disassociative identity disorder

 

[luten]

PTSD
Major depressive disorder
Disassociative identity disorder

i had to google "Disassociative identity disorder"; is this correct?

Dissociation is a disconnection between a person's thoughts, memories, feelings, actions or sense of who he or she is. This is a normal process that everyone has experienced. Examples of mild, common dissociation include daydreaming, highway hypnosis or "getting lost" in a book or movie, all of which involve "losing touch" with awareness of one's immediate surroundings.

During a traumatic experience such as an accident, disaster or crime victimization, dissociation can help a person tolerate what might otherwise be too difficult to bear. In situations like these, a person may dissociate the memory of the place, circumstances or feelings about of the overwhelming event, mentally escaping from the fear, pain and horror. This may make it difficult to later remember the details of the experience, as reported by many disaster and accident survivors.

 

[Moose.000]

i had to google "Disassociative identity disorder"; is this correct?

Dissociation is a disconnection between a person's thoughts, memories, feelings, actions or sense of who he or she is. This is a normal process that everyone has experienced. Examples of mild, common dissociation include daydreaming, highway hypnosis or "getting lost" in a book or movie, all of which involve "losing touch" with awareness of one's immediate surroundings.

During a traumatic experience such as an accident, disaster or crime victimization, dissociation can help a person tolerate what might otherwise be too difficult to bear. In situations like these, a person may dissociate the memory of the place, circumstances or feelings about of the overwhelming event, mentally escaping from the fear, pain and horror. This may make it difficult to later remember the details of the experience, as reported by many disaster and accident survivors.

Yep that's it, it's actually "dissociative." I apologize, damn autocorrect. Basically at any given time I can detach, turn off and turn back on with an entire different personality/identity. I'm not sure when it began, I'm assuming back in 2001, but regardless it's very alive and active today and it's an absolute nightmare.

 

[luten]

Yep that's it, it's actually "dissociative." I apologize, damn autocorrect. Basically at any given time I can detach, turn off and turn back on with an entire different personality/identity. I'm not sure when it began, I'm assuming back in 2001, but regardless it's very alive and active today and it's an absolute nightmare.

that is hectic.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Love and my mental state

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

1. Setting myself up to failure.
2. Being unable to recover from it.

 

[Symbiote]

The past defines who I am even though others have said otherwise. And then my brain tries to reason why it shouldn't be like that and that I enabled it. So my personality is whack and I always feel broken inside or the "wires" got messed up somewhere.

 

[lofticries]

Depression and paranoia.

 

[WhiteDespair]

Today I've had over 24 hours without nicotine. Yayz.

1. I have to speak with my therapist today. He knows I stopped my Adderall. He doesn't know I stopped anything else. He's a decent enough guy.

2. My Dad was disgusted with me when I didn't want to speak with him over the phone. Too bad that talking to him became a chore because I don't want to do it. He also leaves voicemails (hate voicemails) and won't text.

 

[luten]

Today I've had over 24 hours without nicotine. Yayz.

1. I have to speak with my therapist today. He knows I stopped my Adderall. He doesn't know I stopped anything else. He's a decent enough guy.

2. My Dad was disgusted with me when I didn't want to speak with him over the phone. Too bad that talking to him became a chore because I don't want to do it. He also leaves voicemails (hate voicemails) and won't text.

0. happy to hear this, good news, indeed.

 

[Toptock]

1. College dropout - i fucked up my education by switching majors in a very expensive college and running my student loans into the ground. I now have no degree and 50k in loans. This is the biggest source of my shame and regret, as with money i can work toward, but I'll at this point never be able to get a degree because of my mistakes.

2. Money issues - i was very irresponsible with my finances in my younger years, and god dammit no matter how i try to pay it all down, i don't make enough to offset the interest that keeps me anchored in poverty. I cant get a decent job because i have no education.

Shame and accepting responsibility doesnt change anything. I accept all the decisions that brought me here, but I'm so jaded toward the prospect of survival that honestly, life doesnt feel worth it anymore. I hate myself so much, my family doesnt call, i have no friends, i cant afford to go out and do anything because of it. I fight because i have to, not because i think ill win

 

[Fehler]

"No love" and "Myself" at the top, then will come "Depression" "No job" "Addiction".

 

[TotallyIsolated]

I'm clinically depressed, and I've never been in love nor had any kind of romantic relationship.

I'm lucky enough to have a decent job, my physical health is ok (though I dont look after myself), and I have friends.

I feel like all that shit counts for so little though. I'd trade everything I have to be with someone who actually wanted me in their life.

 

[WhiteDespair]

Today its:

1. I have a weekend off and I have to fill the time.
2. My body feels like a furnace and I'm sweaty.

 

[SofieSofie]

These past few years I just got fed up with my life.
Lonely, poor, no perspective. Hate the idea of getting old and probably losing my independence and my good health.
And now The Great Reset, this is really freaking me out
The world has gone absolutely, totally mad, we're gonna be taken over, life will be horrible.
So that's only speeding up my plans!