Tiredman
Rest is best
- Apr 30, 2018
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El Topo
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- Apr 21, 2018
- 478
Download the December 2017 version of The Peaceful Pill Handbook:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/list-of-resources.3/
It contains the contact info for the N supplier. Feel free to ask any questions.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/list-of-resources.3/
It contains the contact info for the N supplier. Feel free to ask any questions.
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- Apr 15, 2022
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That contact info in the PPHe is defunct. You can't get N any longer. There are other versions of it with different names, but you need to travel to S. America to get it *maybe*.
Begotten
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- May 8, 2024
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You can't find N in South America anymore, only country that apparently is still selling it is Mexico
This post is like 5 years old?
When did this happen? Haven't heard this before now.
pthnrdnojvsc
Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
- Aug 12, 2019
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Nembutal was available to order online from 2017 to 2022 as shown by this post. i remember it was also for at least 15 yeas from the The Peaceful Pill Handbook:. PN made those sources available , put the email in the book. i think price was around $750 for 2 bottles . The USA government got D , N from D arrested. they are pure evil for denying people a way to move away from suffering
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- Apr 15, 2022
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I know. I see that now. Know what I did? Instead of clicking the "next" button to view postings on page 2 of the thread, I inadvertently pressed the small arrows, which took me to the last page in the thread. Never even noticed the dates. lol
Well Halatal or the like. Same thing isn't it?
Begotten
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- May 8, 2024
- 62
It's s strictly controlled now in Peru to buy it legally and you can't without prescriptions, of course you can always try to buy illegally with dealers, but won't be that easy to find and there's a chance you will be buying fake N, but yeah it's still a shot to try, I exaggerated a bit saying you can't find it, not actually true
Is it? I think it was always controlled drug anywhere, but in Peru you can bribe in shop or vet.
I bought my bottles in Tarapoto a few months ago. Without prescription. Managed to smuggle them back. Now I'm planning my death carefully so it's as easy as it can be for everybody.
Are ypu the same person who wanted to CTB in the Amazon? This is the second time I see Tarapoto mentioned. Did you change your mind and decided to return to your home country and do it there? Just wondering.
Yeah, I had a weird resurgence in health and decided to not kill myself, but I managed to smuggle the N back home just in case. But then my health deteriorated again, and it dawned on me that even if my chronic pain would disappear overnight, which is unrealistic, I still would be carrying the trauma of having spent the formative years of my adult life with long periods of chronic pain and chronic fatigue, and that has wounded me fatally. I don't feel like a person anymore, but a walking corpse. I have had resurgences in health in the past, they never meant anything important in the long run, my health always deteriorates again. But every time I always had some hope that I would get better permanently but it never happened. I guess that was my last try. So now I'm back, planning my suicide for July when my relatives will be in my city so they can have a funeral if they like for me. And planning whom to leave my money, etc. One thing that has changed is that I'm trying to look at my suicide in a positive way, not as something tragic.
I am so sorry to hear what you are going through but I am happy you now have the freedom of choice. Did you do things in the Amazon that would have caused your health improvement? Change of diet? Less stress? More movement? Change in perspective? Or do you think it was unrelated? I hope you had a nice time in the Amazon. I now saw different people mentioning Tarapoto and wanting to go there. You might have put Tarapoto on the map
No lol. My health resurgences have always been very random in the past and this time was not exception. I always get happy like a child when I have one, but I guess I'm tired to get happy for something so temporary and I wanna die so my condition stops playing with my emotions. It's not healthy. It will always end in disappointment. I don't really wanna live the rest of my life like this. My date is July 22nd. My relatives will be in my city and I hope my sibling who is a very strong person helps my father to grieve as he will be devastated, although surely understanding because of my condition. That date will be the easiest for everybody.
Yeah lol I lost my password to the old one. I'm back in my city now with the N.
At first I thought it was bad that I only bought 4 because 4 is the necessary amount and maybe it would be better with more, but people say i'm more likely to vomit if i drink 5 or 6, so the right amount is the way to go.
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So I am actually going to Peru this summer myself and wanted to ask you a question about the town, and the Amazon, I see it is a one hour flight from Lima. But your new profile is too young so I cannot message you. I will check back and try to see if I can message you in a few days. Also, I think incurable physical ailment and pain are to me the most valid reasons for CTB, especially if there is no hope that your condition will improve. However I also believe in the continuation of consciousness so to me, the most traumatic aspect of CTB is not the CTB part, but the thought of what our parents will experience. If I remember correctly you didn't believe in the continuation of consciousness, I hope that your parents believe in it. I myself have no doubt thankfully, which makes things easier of course.
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- Apr 15, 2022
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Same here, I need to get out of the big city. Had no issues getting it, in fact way easier than what people says.
We're you able to bring it back to your home country? Did you use any special approach, I am terrified of attempting it to do so and everything falling apart along the way, but at the same time I am not comfortable doing it in big city or unknown places, I want to do it quietly and stress free.
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Hey I am flights booked to South America at the beginning of July, I am planning on ending up in Peru to purchase N and was wondering how you all approached getting it whilst you were there? I am hoping to get my Spanish up to scratch to be able to speak well, but is at as simple as walking into Vets asking for it or did you have to come up with some kind of alibi to get them to sell it to you?
I didn't go to a shop, all contact was kept in writing, I am a native spanish speaker so obviously that helped. My final perception was that they wouldn't sell it to a non Peruvian. I can't go into details as I haven't CTB yet so I don't want anything back traced to me and as a result ruining things for me. But as long as you make them feel that they are selling it/delivering to a national you should be fine, if you require a receipt then you will need a Peruvian ID number, and they will check that the name corresponds. Obviously going to the shop physically will clearly demonstrate that you aren't a native. I hope it helps.
They didn't have it at first but it got ordered for me. It was far easier than I ever thought although as I said, I almost screwed it s I got a bit too inquisitive, worried it was too good to be true.
They didn't have it at first but it got ordered for me. It was far easier than I ever thought although as I said, I almost screwed it s I got a bit too inquisitive, worried it was too good to be true.
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