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ben7

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I know similar topics have been posted before, but for those experiencing long-term numbness months after stopping antidepressants (e.g. anhedonia, DP / DR, PSSD) - do you have concerns about whether N would be effective? The brain numbing is so extreme its sometimes hard to think it would react to anything, no matter how potent.
 
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juraviel

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i am completely numb (10/10 on shaps scale), i have very reduced response to all drugs. however when i was in the hospital they had no problem putting me under whatsoever. i think the n is going to have physical effect on the body regardless. might just mean you need a little more than the avg person.
 
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ben7

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Thanks - how do you cope with your complete numbness?
 
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Stopthepain

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I have a similar Problem... but i hope it will work
 
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ben7

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Dec 30, 2020
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honestly, i dont know. im not.
Sorry to hear that - would you call it Anhedonia, DP, DR or PSSD or something different and did it come from medication? Also do you know one gets tested on the Shaps Scale? I don't seem to be able to get any scan, test or anything I have and it's so frustrating, thanks
I have a similar Problem... but i hope it will work
Sorry to hear that, the main advice here seems to be it will but when you feel so numb to everything it's sometimes hard to imagine
 
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Stopthepain

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Jul 11, 2021
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I mean the most drugs do nothing anymore cause my brain is just damaged so tje fear Remains..
I have severe dp dr. Hardcore Transmitter swings burning stress all the time.. hope it N will do its job
And it also came from ssri bruh
 
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Pharmaruined

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I have pfs.. but there is an inverse relationship with ssri syndrome
. Anyway I ordered allopregnenolone from idealabs gonna go real slow..

Pm if u want the link or to discuss
 
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juraviel

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Aug 11, 2021
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Sorry to hear that - would you call it Anhedonia, DP, DR or PSSD or something different and did it come from medication? Also do you know one gets tested on the Shaps Scale? I don't seem to be able to get any scan, test or anything I have and it's so frustrating, thanks

yeah.. a sort of dissociative state, that can be called anhedonia. can't tell you how it came about because it's really complex, wasn't trauma or medication like it typically happens for people though. tests were done by the mental institutions i was in.. but try to find a good neuropsychologist for that sort of thing.
 
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Stopthepain

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Jul 11, 2021
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I know similar topics have been posted before, but for those experiencing long-term numbness months after stopping antidepressants (e.g. anhedonia, DP / DR, PSSD) - do you have concerns about whether N would be effective? The brain numbing is so extreme its sometimes hard to think it would react to anything, no matter how potent.
Do u feel any neurogical symptoms like your brain is rly.damaged ?
 
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Stopthepain

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Jul 11, 2021
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Can u read a book or think like a normal Person? I feel like on hardcore drugs all the time not able to have a normal life. If i use meds it just increases my numbness and my brain issues but nothing rly works.. maan i hope so much N wont let me wake up in an fucking Hospital. I would be so fucked
 
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ben7

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No can't read and feel v numb, a long long time after coming off. Yes the extent of the numbness is the concern for me about N, but most people seem to think it would work
 
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Stopthepain

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Jul 11, 2021
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No can't read and feel v numb, a long long time after coming off. Yes the extent of the numbness is the concern for me about N, but most people seem to think it would work
It s been 3 hellish years for me..
 
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The Lonely

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Jan 26, 2021
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I am reducing my meds in order to take N.

So far It's been hellish days without sleeping properly (nausea, tiredness) and I noticed my heart beating got lowered…

So many years under all these (…) I don't know how it will be without anything… certainly something is compromised
 
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Stopthepain

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Jul 11, 2021
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I am reducing my meds in order to take N.

So far It's been hellish days without sleeping properly (nausea, tiredness) and I noticed my heart beating got lowered…

So many years under all these (…) I don't know how it will be without anything… certainly something is compromised
Yea did that too the last 3 months. Not sure if lyrica is necessary to withdrawl from.. only taking a small Doze at the Moment but going to zero would be too hellish .. hardcore anxiety while being half out of concioussness combined witj a plan to cbd would be even more torturing ..and being scared of death before ctb is triggering the SI too much and i get ripped apart while feeling stuck in my horrible sick body. 5 months to get off my benzos and being on Zero for 2/3 months now Was torture enough - did this too see if it would magicaly improve my condition when i am off my meds or being able to use N if nothing improves, and yea.. it is hell like always ..

Now i am looking what Kind of benzos are working best to take them in my last days ( to be able to tanke antiemetics in time and stay focused and not get fucked by random panic /stress waves my brain produces everday for no reason before i ctb.

And then the day I am not rly excidet about comes..
But i just wont live with 26 years like a retarted zombie is in torture every sek of the day..
 
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ben7

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Yea did that too the last 3 months. Not sure if lyrica is necessary to withdrawl from.. only taking a small Doze at the Moment but going to zero would be too hellish .. hardcore anxiety while being half out of concioussness combined witj a plan to cbd would be even more torturing ..and being scared of death before ctb is triggering the SI too much and i get ripped apart while feeling stuck in my horrible sick body. 5 months to get off my benzos and being on Zero for 2/3 months now Was torture enough - did this too see if it would magicaly improve my condition when i am off my meds or being able to use N if nothing improves, and yea.. it is hell like always ..

Now i am looking what Kind of benzos are working best to take them in my last days ( to be able to tanke antiemetics in time and stay focused and not get fucked by random panic /stress waves my brain produces everday for no reason before i ctb.

And then the day I am not rly excidet about comes..
But i just wont live with 26 years like a retarted zombie is in torture every sek of the day..
Sorry to hear that, so are you still on SSRIs? My concern is I've been off everything for months and months and still totally numb so I can't even reduce anything before the N to make it better, it concerns me
 
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Stopthepain

Member
Jul 11, 2021
98
Sorry to hear that, so are you still on SSRIs? My concern is I've been off everything for months and months and still totally numb so I can't even reduce anything before the N to make it better, it concerns me
In off them for 2 years.
I am* i just feel hardcore painful Depression..but numbed
 
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