N or Sn? Advice would be appreciated.

[Hiraeth Grimoire]

I'm planning to CTB on the 29th and I need to stop fucking around and bite the bullet. On this day, if the schedule stays the same, I should have a full ten hours alone without any distractions. I believe this is enough time for either N or SN to work appropriately with almost no chance of revival. My dilemma is I don't know which option to choose. If I choose N from D then I have to figure out how to use crypto or bitcoin or whatever and get it here without my grandma finding it (I live with my grandma and don't have a car, we also share a mailbox) and who knows what the consequences for that will be if she finds out. This method appears straightforward forward though if I secure N and the other medications required. SN on the other hand seems to be a bit more challenging in regards to securing all of the different medicines. I don't know what to do. From what I have read N is definitely the best way to die and SN has a high chance of barfing, burning in the throat, nausea, and potential unpleasant side effects, which doesn't concern me very much. If any of you are choosing N or SN feel free to let me know why one or the other appeals to you and what advice you would have if any. Thank you, hopefully you guys arent suffering too badly.

 

[The_Flying_Fox]

Personally, I would choose N, because it seems to be a little bit more reliable and peaceful. That said, I must add that I personally found it very difficult to obtain Bitcoin.

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

Given both options, I would go with N without a doubt. However, in my situation N is both too pricey and risky, so I have opted for SN which I have already procured. I have not yet acquired all the additional meds for SN but am currently not on a short schedule to use it so just mainly wanted to make sure I had it first in case sources began to dry up.

There is also the problem of N availability. Reports have been that D is supposed to get restocked this month, but I have not yet read anyone saying this has occurred yet. If you have the means and D is restocked, I would go with N in a heartbeat. It just seems way more reliable and peaceful. Maybe start out working towards getting N, but have a plan on the backburner for SN if it falls through.

Hope you find peace whatever you choose.

 

[Sasel]

Given both options, I would go with N without a doubt. However, in my situation N is both too pricey and risky, so I have opted for SN which I have already procured. I have not yet acquired all the additional meds for SN but am currently not on a short schedule to use it so just mainly wanted to make sure I had it first in case sources began to dry up.

There is also the problem of N availability. Reports have been that D is supposed to get restocked this month, but I have not yet read anyone saying this has occurred yet. If you have the means and D is restocked, I would go with N in a heartbeat. It just seems way more reliable and peaceful. Maybe start out working towards getting N, but have a plan on the backburner for SN if it falls through.

Hope you find peace whatever you choose.

Who is "D"?

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

Who is "D"?

"D" is the only current trusted source for obtaining N. The information on how to contact can be found in the PPH section on N. Make absolutely sure you have a legit copy of the PPH as some scams have turned up within altered copies.

 

[Sasel]

"D" is the only current trusted source for obtaining N. The information on how to contact can be found in the PPH section on N. Make absolutely sure you have a legit copy of the PPH as some scams have turned up within altered copies.

If his info is available in the PPH I guess he only provides N to elder and really sick people, right?

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

If his info is available in the PPH I guess he only provides N to elder and really sick people, right?

No, this is available to pretty much anyone with the cash(about $1000) and the means to get it to D via bitcoin. D has been out of stock recently however, and is supposed to re-up this month according to reports here.

 

[Sasel]

No, this is available to pretty much anyone with the cash(about $1000) and the means to get it to D via bitcoin. D has been out of stock recently however, and is supposed to re-up this month according to reports here.

Damn thats a lot of money, 1000$ per bottle? idk if I could take that risk

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

Damn thats a lot of money, 1000$ per bottle? idk if I could take that risk

1k gets you 2 bottles if I remember correctly which should be a reliable amount for pretty much anyone to CTB. You are correct tho that is a considerable risk even with D's solid reputation as there is always a risk of customs or law enforcement screwing up the delivery.

 

[Sasel]

1k gets you 2 bottles if I remember correctly which should be a reliable amount for pretty much anyone to CTB. You are correct tho that is a considerable risk even with D's solid reputation as there is always a risk of customs or law enforcement screwing up the delivery.

Yeah, I will seriously consider it, should I face trouble if I live in South America?

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

Yeah, I will seriously consider it, should I face trouble if I live in South America?

I'm in the US so I can't really say what legal issues may arise in your country. I would definitely look into what consequences there might be for your location. If I remember correctly there some Central and/or South American countries mentioned in the PPH where N can be purchased legally at veterinary stores if you know what to say/ask for. The price per bottle is like $50 I think if acquired that way.

 

[Sasel]

I'm in the US so I can't really say what legal issues may arise in your country. I would definitely look into what consequences there might be for your location. If I remember correctly there some Central and/or South American countries mentioned in the PPH where N can be purchased legally at veterinary stores if you know what to say/ask for. The price per bottle is like $50 I think if acquired that way.

I see, I meant if he had no problems doing global shipments haha, damn that would be awesome to get it that easy, thank you for your time

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

I see, I meant if he had no problems doing global shipments haha, damn that would be awesome to get it that easy, thank you for your time

There have been reports of him shipping to many different countries so I would think SA would be on his list of possible locations, but obviously you would need to make contact to confirm your location specifically.

 

[Hiraeth Grimoire]

Given both options, I would go with N without a doubt. However, in my situation N is both too pricey and risky, so I have opted for SN which I have already procured. I have not yet acquired all the additional meds for SN but am currently not on a short schedule to use it so just mainly wanted to make sure I had it first in case sources began to dry up.

There is also the problem of N availability. Reports have been that D is supposed to get restocked this month, but I have not yet read anyone saying this has occurred yet. If you have the means and D is restocked, I would go with N in a heartbeat. It just seems way more reliable and peaceful. Maybe start out working towards getting N, but have a plan on the backburner for SN if it falls through.

Hope you find peace whatever you choose.

After contemplating it a bit think I'm probably gonna go with SN also due to it being easier to access and the risk of N getting caught. It probably isn't ideal to die that way, as some of the stories on here are quite frightening about SN failures, even if they are fabricated, but the nature of what we are doing is probably bound to be unpleasant in one way or another. SI is a terrible thing and probably the biggest battle any of us will face in this process. I also fear whatever is on the other side even though it's irrational. The problem with SN seems to be all of the other meds required and I need to do research on this. I wish we all had access to peaceful suicide where others were supportive. Reality really is a carnival of gore where everyone is out for themselves. I'm sorry you also find yourself in this predicament of existence. Hopefully, you can find peace as well here in whatever decision you end up making.