How did you know your body was failing during your NDE? And did you feel any physical pain during your NDE? And when you went through the mental pain, was it anxiety or sadness? Like what kind of mental pain was it?
I understand completely why it's painless but it's hard not to panic before ctb. I worry mostly of psychological pain during the process.
Well I was dying... my body was simply shutting down, one piece after the other. I finally passed out when I was unable to breath; the physical pain before passing out was that of a heart attack and other weird stuff (like being stabbed in my chest, plus electric shocks in my head). Concerning the mental pain: it was not anxiety or sadness, it was just the most terrible fear I ever experienced. It was like being conscious for real and for the first time in my life; the most difficult thing to deal with was being conscious that I was dying and that I was alone. It's not easy to describe that fear and that loneliness: there is nothing as a living being that can be compared to that (at least in my experience). That said there's a beautiful moment when you decide to let go everything and everything becomes just beautiful; actually this has been the most terrible and most beautiful experience I ever lived.
Actually that is wrong. The way people and pets die via euthanasia is virtually painless. Execution is quite painful and horrible because no pharmaceutical companies are willing to sell barbituates like Nembutal to the state. So they use an awful cocktail of a paralytic ( you can't move or scream,) a benzo and something that stops your heart that supposedly feels like acid or fire coursing through your veins.
I agree those methods are unlikely to be completely painless but may be so rapid that it is negligible. Certainly if the person miscalculates then it can be slower and quite painful.
I know 2 people who got the angle wrong and then lived. They both had some scars and whatnot, but were not half as fucked up as you'd think. I didn't even know it was possible for that to happen. I'm assuming the gun has a lot to do with it, but it just seems like any gun would be pretty bad on your head.
So you knew your organs were shutting down when unconscious? Or you mean you felt all that when you were still conscious?
When I was still conscious I knew that things were going horribly wrong all over my body. My attention was on the heart and breath mainly though. Once unconscious my body wasn't a problem anymore, it wasn't "there" anymore. I even pissed myself without noticing it.
So when you were unconscious, was death still scary like mentally? Did you see anything when unconscious during your NDE?
It's when I was unconscious that it was painful mentally. As I lost contact with my body some images popped up in my mind; nothing special really, I think it was just the mind trying to do its job by producing some "content". As said I was in terror at first, and felt incredibly lonely. Then I realized that nothing really matters at all, and decided to let go everything. Once I accepted that I was dying I "found" myself in a "room"; in this room there was 5 persons and these persons was myself. I think this was just an allucination/dream experience produced by the brain. After this stage everything become black and a small white light appeared; this light probably was the most beautiful thing I ever seen in my life. I remember I was able to see the light and at the same time I was that light. To be honest I wouldn't describe it as light... just imagine a led bulb in the darkness. Other than this I didn't see anything special; I suppose this depends on the fact that I don't believe in any supernatural entity/god/whatever...
