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[Lostnotfound]

Lined up ready but still too early!!!
So just checking .... one hour before is 3 x 10mg meto, 3 x 200mg nurofen 1 x 100mg trazodone.... 30 mins before is 2 x 5ml milk of magnesia, 1 x trazodone .... then its 25g sn dissolved in as little water as possible.

I have some grapes to eat one or two after taking the sn to try to get rid of the taste - I am not good at swallowing things that taste bad.

Ive been fasting since 3am yesterday - eaten 2 grapes and 1 digestive biscuit (diabetic so have to try to keep it under control)

anything I am missing before the point of no return ..... in a hotel, wont be found, checked stans guide

 

[s1mplem3]

Looks like bus ticket, I'm sorry.

 

[Jean4]

You know I love you and are here for you.

 

[Lostnotfound]

Looks like bus ticket, I'm sorry.

Yes but have i got it right? I dont want a return ticket or I wouldn't be catching it in the first place

 

[s1mplem3]

Yes but have i got it right? I dont want a return ticket or I wouldn't be catching it in the first place

No one can guarantee 100%.

 

[Jean4]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[Jean4]

To quote Stan who did a stat dose

Doing a stat dose

AE Buccastem
200mg of tramadol for pain relief and a bit of mental well being
otc antacid

20gm of SN in 50ml of water (making a few glasses - will drink them till the job is done - no coming back, no failure)

 

[Lostnotfound]

The one thing I've noticed pretty much every failed attempt has in common, is they're found. If you have that covered, you're fine.

I've noticed the same. I am in a hotel where no one checks on anyone. My tv is normally on all night so I will leave that as it is. As long as I dont scream out in pain no one will disturb me. Check out is Friday morning so Ive got plenty of time.

To quote Stan who did a stat dose

Doing a stat dose

AE Buccastem ..... METO
200mg of tramadol for pain relief and a bit of mental well being ..... IBUPROFEN
otc antacid ..... MILK OF MAGNESIA

20gm of SN in 50ml of water (making a few glasses - will drink them till the job is done - no coming back, no failure) .... CARRYING EXCESS WEIGHT SO 25g

 

[luna666]

Hey there! I hope you have a peaceful journey and find the peace you need!

 

[highlyvolatile]

I've noticed the same. I am in a hotel where no one checks on anyone. My tv is normally on all night so I will leave that as it is. As long as I dont scream out in pain no one will disturb me. Check out is Friday morning so Ive got plenty of time.

It seems like your plan is solid. I'm wishing you peace when you go.

 

[Jumper Geo]

Yes but have i got it right? I dont want a return ticket or I wouldn't be catching it in the first place

Lol, I don't want to be thrown of the bus.the most important thing is the SN and we know that works as David CTB yesterday, everything else is a luxury.

 

[TeenIdle]

When are you ctbing?

 

[Lostnotfound]

When are you ctbing?

Tonight

 

[Ulisses]

man, can i know a little bit of your story? what led to that point?

 

[Lostnotfound]

man, can i know a little bit of your story? what led to that point?

There is loads of it all over the forum but its basically due to family. I have lost them through long and drawn out situations and there is no way to change things and they dont want to change things and I dont want to be without them, and to continue in life makes life harder for them and I dont want that. Its the best thing for all involved if I step out now, but also of the options I have I feel this is the best one for me.

 

[Ulisses]

I understand. I am also stuck with people who would be better off without me, in this case my son I abandoned because of the shit I did. I have high debts that were not able to pay easily and among other problems. my ctb and next month. so i want to see the sea later before ctb.
I wish you luck and peace in your ctb and that you get your rest

 

[TeenIdle]

Tonight

Oh, how long until that hour? I'm from Europe, I'd like to keep you company in your last moments if you'd like.

And one question, why have you been fasting since yesterday? I think I'll fast 3-5 hours before doing it

 

[Jumper Geo]

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Lined up ready but still too early!!!
So just checking .... one hour before is 3 x 10mg meto, 3 x 200mg nurofen 1 x 100mg trazodone.... 30 mins before is 2 x 5ml milk of magnesia, 1 x trazodone .... then its 25g sn dissolved in as little water as possible.

I have some grapes to eat one or two after taking the sn to try to get rid of the taste - I am not good at swallowing things that taste bad.

Ive been fasting since 3am yesterday - eaten 2 grapes and 1 digestive biscuit (diabetic so have to try to keep it under control)

anything I am missing before the point of no return ..... in a hotel, wont be found, checked stans guide

Haha, I new there was something missing where's your straw you can pop out to McDonald's for a freebie.

 

[Lostnotfound]

Oh, how long until that hour? I'm from Europe, I'd like to keep you company in your last moments if you'd like.

And one question, why have you been fasting since yesterday? I think I'll fast 3-5 hours before doing it

Probably about another 4 hours yet - waiting for my body to get tired naturally so it accepts the meds easier. Meto gives me a racing heart so I need to be calm and quiet etc.

I find it easier just not to eat from when I wake up rather than trying to stop eating at a set time.

 

[Brackenshire]

I wish a peaceful heart and journey friend
If you are a little unsure maybe a few days wait would be good

 

[TeenIdle]

Probably about another 4 hours yet - waiting for my body to get tired naturally so it accepts the meds easier. Meto gives me a racing heart so I need to be calm and quiet etc.

I find it easier just not to eat from when I wake up rather than trying to stop eating at a set time.

Oh, okay, good luck I'm with you whatever you finally decide/do! If you'd like to talk feel free to pm me

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Hey @Lostnotfound i was wondering how you are feeling? I'm here to support you and hope you find peace. Here to talk as well if you want I'll be holding your hand through your entire journey. Sending you lots of love

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Wishing you a peaceful journey

 

[Jean4]

Hey @Lostnotfound i was wondering how you are feeling? I'm here to support you and hope you find peace. Here to talk as well if you want I'll be holding your hand through your entire journey. Sending you lots of love

She's fine and is with me. ;)

 

[Lostnotfound]

almost

 

[Brackenshire]

I hope you have a peaceful journey friend

 

[TeenIdle]

Have you already taken the SN? How are you feeling?

 

[Lostnotfound]

This is my last post and then I'll leave you with those around me. A huge huge huge Thankyou to @Quarky00 for keeping me safe and listening to my rants. A huge huge huge thankyou to @jgm63 who gave up so much of his time to try to help me. And my companions tonight as I leave this world are @Jean4 , @s1mplem3 and @Jumper Geo who have done a brilliant job of keeping me calm. You guys are the best. I'm 6 minutes in on sn. Keep this place going - its needed. Stan - I'm on my way xx

 

[Deleted member 14177]

So many hugs. I am wishing you such peace.

 

[Jean4]

This is my last post and then I'll leave you with those around me. A huge huge huge Thankyou to @Quarky00 for keeping me safe and listening to my rants. A huge huge huge thankyou to @jgm63 who gave up so much of his time to try to help me. And my companions tonight as I leave this world are @Jean4 , @s1mplem3 and @Jumper Geo who have done a brilliant job of keeping me calm. You guys are the best. I'm 6 minutes in on sn. Keep this place going - its needed. Stan - I'm on my way xx

I'm with you. Sending you love and peace.