My suicidal thoughts sent me into a flare up

[lemonandcapers]

I have chronic illness and have been experiencing suicidal thoughts. I have been in distress for two months, but the other day, I was inconsolable. I cried so hard I could not breathe. The next day, my joints ached. Usually, this signifies that I am in a flare/about to experience one. My pain has only gotten worse with the passing days. It feels like someone is stabbing my back.

It was definitely caused by the stress I have been in. I hate that I am not allowed to feel negative emotions about my illness without my body punishing me for it.

 

[darksouls]

I am very sorry for your situation
sending you hugs and love

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really dreadful to me, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this extreme pain and suffering in existing, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[MidnightDream]

I have fibromyalgia and can relate to this heavily