My suicidal OCD is unbearable, I need a way to die with it looking like an accident or a place where I won’t ever be found?

[diealegend24]

I'm tired of OCD. I can't live like this anymore. Imagine constantly hearing "kill yourself", "what if you kill yourself?", "I'm gonna kill myself", and etc.

My little brother died last week Monday from cancer and I can't even focus on grieving.

Tbh before his death I was barely hanging on. Now I honestly don't even care anymore.

Please tell me a method to mask it as an accident or somewhere I can die where I won't ever be found.

 

[2muchpain2]

i'm sorry for your loss. and I wish I knew of a way to make it look accidental too. I'm very OCD about this. the only method I have that could potentially look accidental is a hiking accident. I wish I could go in a car accident but it's not guaranteed even if you hit a tree.
were you planning to ctb before your brother passed?

 

[diealegend24]

i'm sorry for your loss. and I wish I knew of a way to make it look accidental too. I'm very OCD about this. the only method I have that could potentially look accidental is a hiking accident. I wish I could go in a car accident but it's not guaranteed even if you hit a tree.
were you planning to ctb before your brother passed?

Yes I wanted to die before my brother passed away. My OCD is unbearable. The issue is for the longest I've been looking for method to make it look accidental or do it in a place in which no one can find me.

I don't want to live anymore. I don't have anything to live for. My life is hell.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I have ocd too and I relate a lot. You're going through so much. That's so overwhelming to deal with. I wish i could make it look accidental also

 

[2muchpain2]

Yes I wanted to die before my brother passed away. My OCD is unbearable. The issue is for the longest I've been looking for method to make it look accidental or do it in a place in which no one can find me.

I don't want to live anymore. I don't have anything to live for. My life is hell.

I also keep thinking that if I don't do it soon something is going to happen to prevent me from doing it, the same as what happened to you by losing your brother. So that complicates it so much. and I'm sorry you are going thru so much pain.

 

[diealegend24]

I also keep thinking that if I don't do it soon something is going to happen to prevent me from doing it, the same as what happened to you by losing your brother. So that complicates it so much. and I'm sorry you are going thru so much pain.

I need to find a method to make it look like an accident. There has to be a way.

 

[2muchpain2]

I need to find a method to make it look like an accident. There has to be a way.

please let me know if you think of something.

 

[diealegend24]

car accident into a tree?

Get into rock climbing as a hobby and go climbing then fall off?

Freeze to death on a mountain?

please let me know if you think of something

 

[2muchpain2]

car accident into a tree?

Get into rock climbing as a hobby and go climbing then fall off?

Freeze to death on a mountain?

falling on a hike is kind of ideal for me. I am a hiker, and I hike almost every day. The thing is, where I live there is no trail or cliff that is high enough, and ofc I don't want it to fail. As for the crashing into a tree, if you can make that work 100% it's a good idea, but I would be a little worried it wouldn't work. Freezing on a mountain, maybe? Do you live near a snow?

I am actually planning a trip to Yosemite at the end of June. Solo hiking trip. yosemite can be very dangerous, people die there all the time! so that is a back up plan I'm considering.