Method My struggle finding a method in a limited environment

[martinso67]

I am sorry that I was somewhat critical of this site. It's also because I have no one to talk too, that really respects me. Like that one thread here. Where a woman got a friend who helped her get her desired method and who did spend the last time with her when she did take that "medicine" to CTB.
I wish I had somewhat like that.

I can't travel to South America to get my favorite and real solution named N. I did have that amount of money and I can't travel so far (I am from Europe). I am too tired for that and don't want to get sick before I take my N. I don't want it to fail. I already failed partial hanging and cutting myself.

THE FOLLOWING METHODS ARE AVAILABLE:
- Gas
Method done in my country. I could get nitrogen or helium. But I have to order it in beforehand and I cannot get it delivered to anywhere I want. I must get it delivered to a associated store, where I have to take it.
The thing (gas container) is big. I cannot really hide it and it's hard to transport it. Need a car. I don't have that.
How would I sneak it into a hotel room, where I would perform the act.
No#.I WANT THIS METHOD. But because of logistics not possible.
- Train
I prefer this. But I need to overcame my anxiety. For this I need some medication that curbs my anxiety. I am researching a doctor who could help me against anxiety. My anxiety stops me from this method. It will be done at the darkness, so no one will rescue me easily. Also this method is a backup and the only reliable one in my location.
- Something like night night method
Partial hanging did not succeed for me. I nearly did it. Lost my consciousness. A fast and the best idea for "pro life slaves". People like me who have no control over their body and are enslaved by society.
I need more information how to get into the asphyxiation state like a person is when he did hang him self and his rope giving him no air.
PPEH (my somewhat hero) does mention it.

And that's it. Only really available method are the last two above.
I also did come up now with the idea of getting a small gas bottle of helium and combine it with Co2 method. I put the helium in a mask. And close myself in a tent that has co2 burning in it. Through charcoal. Before I start that I take strong sleeping pills.

 

[AmericanMary]

Shouldn't charcoal in a tent produce CO and not CO2?


Or that does CO2 happen bc of the helium? Idk anything about helium. Or gasses mixing.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so horrible and extremely cruel to me how people have to struggle so much to die, I wish that Nembutal is accessible, it'd be such a relief for me. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.

 

[martinso67]

It's so horrible and extremely cruel to me how people have to struggle so much to die, I wish that Nembutal is accessible, it'd be such a relief for me. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.

I always appreciate your post. Your intake and worldview may not be appreciated by everyone. It's still valuable for this site.

There is also no law at least in Western European countries and the US that makes suicide by medication illegal. And how do you make something a crime that has compared to smoking or alcohol no real effect on other people.

People who suicide are already not living life to the fullest. They are only surviving, because they do not have access to a method to end one's self. I mean regular alcohol consumption or not taking care of one's health can also be suicide. But a slow one. Though it's something that's not taboo or regarded badly. I remember one video on a right to die channel. Where a woman talked about a relative who did drink and smoke and did not really change his life style regardless of what a doctor said. He did tell a secret to that woman that he did not want to live and finds life useless. He died at his late 30s tragically because of some cancer.

One has to suffer extra hard at the end one's more. All this because of "empathetic" society and humans that are wanting to "protect" people.

 

[LaughingGoat]

As you've tried partial hanging and, is there a reason you won't consider complete/full-drop?

 

[martinso67]

I took partial because its recommend more and I thought that the full drop would not withstand my weight. The rope or the holding metal of my clothes cupboard would break.

 

[LaughingGoat]

I took partial because its recommend more and I thought that the full drop would not withstand my weight. The rope or the holding metal of my clothes cupboard would break.

Full-drop has a much better chance if you make sure the rope is strong enough (there are plenty of ropes you can get which can hold hundred-thousands of pounds) and choose a strong anchor point. The only SI to overcome is the drop, after that you couldn't do anything even if you wanted to, not to mention the aim of the method is immediate death or loss of consciousness.