rntmss

rntmss

Taking it one day at a time
Feb 7, 2020
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Well, my SN showed up in my mailbox. Quite unceremoniously too. I expected to sign something or have some customs import paperwork with it... but nope. Just a bottle in a mailer envelope.

now the weird thing is I feel so... relieved. Knowing that I have the tools to CTB when I'm ready is very surreal.

was thinking about taking a drive up to some wilderness and just lie down in the woods.
 
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waterbottleman

waterbottleman

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Sep 30, 2019
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Yeah I felt the same way when I got my SN and meto (although I had to wait like another month for the meto).

Glad you got yours.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
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Well, my SN showed up in my mailbox. Quite unceremoniously too. I expected to sign something or have some customs import paperwork with it... but nope. Just a bottle in a mailer envelope.

now the weird thing is I feel so... relieved. Knowing that I have the tools to CTB when I'm ready is very surreal.

was thinking about taking a drive up to some wilderness and just lie down in the woods.
Might as well try and make it as peaceful as possible. I must admit it hasn't really helped me and it's because I don't know if I can really face knowing I'm going to die for 12 minutes. It's hard to imagine that ever being peaceful. I just want it to be instantaneous
 
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Largeletters

Largeletters

Alone
Jan 21, 2020
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I hope you find peace... especially going in the way you want to.
 
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Over&out

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Feb 21, 2020
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Where did you get the SN and meto from. I'm in the US.
 
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akrasia

akrasia

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Feb 11, 2020
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I felt the same way when my SN arrived. I was happy that it came but also surreal since this bottle could change my future.
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
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I felt similarly when I first acquired my firearm more than a year ago (in December 2018). I felt as though I finally had the courage to try things and if things fail, well, I could always just check out and that would be the end of my suffering. Anyways, I hope you are able to find peace and well done on acquiring your method. :hug:
 
rntmss

rntmss

Taking it one day at a time
Feb 7, 2020
197
Where did you get the SN and meto from. I'm in the US.
I'm in Canada. No Meto for me, unfortunately... I'm terrified of having it get seized at customs and then I'm facing legal action for importing drugs.

just gotta go for it without it and hope I can hold it all down...
 
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itslaly

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May 13, 2019
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Might as well try and make it as peaceful as possible. I must admit it hasn't really helped me and it's because I don't know if I can really face knowing I'm going to die for 12 minutes. It's hard to imagine that ever being peaceful. I just want it to be instantaneous
omg i feel you so much. i ordered my SN today and i'm already so scared of how those 12 minutes are going to be... i have tried to kill myself before but it was with pills, and even though i was younger and i thought they would work, this is the first time i'm doing something planned and the first time i know through research that it is really going to work.
 
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akrasia

akrasia

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Feb 11, 2020
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Where did you get the SN and meto from. I'm in the US.
I got my SN from Amazon. I got my meto from ebay from a greek vender. It was quite hard getting my meto, it's basically luck and timing that I got my meto from ebay.
I hope this helps and that you are doing well. -hugs-
 
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Over&out

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Feb 21, 2020
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I got my SN from Amazon. I got my meto from ebay from a greek vender. It was quite hard getting my meto, it's basically luck and timing that I got my meto from ebay.
I hope this helps and that you are doing well. -hugs-
Thanks, you too
 
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