MY SN JUST ARRIVED

[Rhizomorph1]

So fucking happy I waited almost 2 months for it to arrive due to shipping delays from the holidays.

It's so relieving knowing that I can be dead within a few hours at any given point. It's so empowering!

Holding it in my hands feels like I'm holding a newborn baby... It's so beautiful.

I also received meto from an online pharmacy and have a stash of lorazepam

Sigh... Finally.

 

[Rogue Proxy]

Congratulations on getting your keys to freedom!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so relieved at having a way to cease existing on your own terms, I wish you the best, I certainly see those with access to SN as being fortunate.

 

[justcallmeJ]

Congrats! Mine just arrived half an hour ago too. Such a great and weird feeling.

 

[Hannah05]

Congrats… I just can't find a source to get SN in Central Europe… :(

 

[partymonster]

so happy for you, I hope everything goes well and find the peace you're looking for.

 

[hellispink]

Congrats

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Grats Rizo

 

[SVEN]

Congrats.

 

[Yaffle]

Congratulations, you the envy of the forum now.

I can imagine it much feel liberating to have it in hand.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Congrats! It must be so relieving to hold it in the hands!

 

[Rhizomorph1]

Thank you all for the congratulations. It's certainly a weird feeling and I hope all those who haven't been able to access SN or their method of choice are able to soon!

Seeing all the normal people in line at the post office getting Christmas presents for their kids while I picked up my ctb drugs was definitely unique.

I'm really happy for them that they get to live happy, relatively normal lives :)

I'm just about ready to go...

Congrats! Mine just arrived half an hour ago too. Such a great and weird feeling.

Congrats to you too! Happy for you :)

I understand why you'd feel so relieved at having a way to cease existing on your own terms, I wish you the best, I certainly see those with access to SN as being fortunate.

You haven't been able to find it?

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Seeing all the normal people in line at the post office getting Christmas presents for their kids while I picked up my ctb drugs was definitely unique.

I can't imagine it wouldn't feel unique at all.

Thank you all for the congratulations. It's certainly a weird feeling and I hope all those who haven't been able to access SN or their method of choice are able to soon!

It's definitely surreal that it's hand because it definitely shows there's a part of you that isn't just considering ctb.

I also received meto from an online pharmacy and have a stash of lorazepam

Just how much Lora do you have?

 

[Rhizomorph1]

I can't imagine it wouldn't feel unique at all.


It's definitely surreal that it's hand because it definitely shows there's a part of you that isn't just considering ctb.

I think I've finally exhausted all my options for recovery after multiple failed medications & treatment...

A few weeks back I was 50/50 but now I'm about 90% certain...

In the coming weeks/months after a few last resort efforts to see if there's any chance for a quality of life il probably find myself at 100% and set myself a date...

It's exhausting all this trial and error; where there's mostly just error.

At least the antidepressants make me less anxious. I'm still miserable though

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I think I've finally exhausted all my options for recovery after multiple failed medications...

A few weeks back I was 50/50 but now I'm about 90% certain...

In the coming weeks/months after a few last resort efforts to see if there's any chance for a quality of life il probably find myself at 100% and set myself a date...

It's exhausting all this trial and error; where there's mostly just error.

At least the antidepressants make me less anxious. I'm still miserable though

At least you gave it about as much effort as you could before coming this decision and it's good that you are still perhaps looking for something that provides a chance for a quality of life that you want.

To some degree, I suppose sn provides a comfort to know there's a way out if all options are exhausted within what you can do.

 

[Rhizomorph1]

At least you gave it about as much effort as you could before coming this decision and it's good that you are still perhaps looking for something that provides a chance for a quality of life that you want.

To some degree, I suppose sn provides a comfort to know there's a way out if all options are exhausted within what you can do.

You hit the nail on the head.

I appreciate your presence on this forum and hope you're doing well at this time

 

[EternalShore]

I understand why you'd feel so relieved at having a way to cease existing on your own terms, I wish you the best, I certainly see those with access to SN as being fortunate.

Why don't you get some too? :)

So fucking happy I waited almost 2 months for it to arrive due to shipping delays from the holidays.

It's so relieving knowing that I can be dead within a few hours at any given point. It's so empowering!

Holding it in my hands feels like I'm holding a newborn baby... It's so beautiful.

I also received meto from an online pharmacy and have a stash of lorazepam

Sigh... Finally.

Congratulations! :D yeah, getting SN made me really happy too! ^_^ It's great that one can literally choose to die within an hour like literally whenever! xD Knowing that makes it much easier to live and do more difficult things as you can really back out whenever! xD

 

[Deleted member 65988]

You hit the nail on the head.

I appreciate your presence on this forum and hope you're doing well at this time

Thank you, that means a lot Rhizo and I've enjoyed our interactions especially when we shut down the whole "Sn oxidation" issue, it's about someone did I guess .

 

[Golden]

Congrats. I've ordered from the same source and it should arrive any day now, this post makes me very hopeful that I'll get mine too. Would you mind sharing from which pharmacy did you get your meto from?

 

[EyeBeyond]

I understand why you'd feel so relieved at having a way to cease existing on your own terms, I wish you the best, I certainly see those with access to SN as being fortunate.

why u cant get SN in ur country ?

 

[zombiegirl]

mazel tov! you should document it when you do it

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Thank you, that means a lot Rhizo and I've enjoyed our interactions especially when we shut down the whole "Sn oxidation" issue, it's about someone did I guess .

do you have the link to the thread where you talked about the SN oxidation issue?

 

[Deleted member 65988]

do you have the link to the thread where you talked about the SN oxidation issue?

A question about SN

My SN is in a sealed container. If I opened the container for a couple of minutes and closed it again, would that reduce SN shelf life?

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[0000000000000]

I was also a little excited when i got mine haha, although i still need a few things to secure the method.

Once i have it secured i probably won't give a shit about some of the things that affect me anymore because i will finally have the relief of knowing that i can leave this fucking shitty world whenever i want to.

Sorry for the swearing but i'm just extremely fed up with this disgusting world.

 

[Abyssal]

Was it from M? I saw you mention you ordered from them a bit ago and I have heard they have scammed others. Make sure you know what you got is truly SN with the blood and aquarium tests and report back to us!