tarococo

tarococo

professional procrastinator
Nov 27, 2023
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Last night was insanely exhausting, having nightmares is nothing new to me.
But this time I had quite a few dreams containing the SN waiting for me in my closet.
And everytime I woke up and fell back asleep it kept going.

I remember that in one of them I had already downed my first glass, and layed down. While waiting to finally pass out one of my cats drank from the second glass I prepared, and while feeling myself growing weaker I had to watch him cramping and screaming, dying an agonizing death. It was torture. I woke up crying, fell back asleep after drinking some tea and hugging him tightly.
Again, I had already downed my SN in the next dream. This time my best friend attempted to ctb with me, he panicked, called his mum. She arrived and kept screaming at me that this is all my fault, that I influenced him to do this.
A few more dreams followed where the police was at my door and I couldn't find that container, they took me to psychward because they didn't believe me and told me I'd go to prison if I wouldn't hand it out (šŸ˜­??)

I feel like I'm actually starting to lose my mind
 
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Yeah, you have a lot going on in your conscious. I'm sorry about this.
 
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