Venting My school bully is living the life I wanted

[Obliviate]

As I get closer to CTB I started reminiscing about school days and he popped up in my mind. Wanting to see just exactly how cruel life is, continuing indeed to be true about horrible people going on to live successful lives.

Now he wasn't the worst bully but enough to make serious lasting impacts. I found about a coupe years ago that he allegedly partook in indirect molestation of one of our mutuals/his best friend that occurred while we were in school. He would body shame, harass, make insensitive racial remarks with him and his horrible group.


People would joke all the time that he and I would end up together because he would pick on me and I would fire back. Bickering back and forth. He was the obnoxious popular athletic intelligent jock that every girl had a crush on and I was the shy awkward autistic girl. The typical lame ass cringy teen movie trope.

He's now a medical student at the university that I wanted to go to in the field of medicine that I wanted. That was suppose to be MINE. Fuck this. It states he cares about patient care and ethics.

Oh and get this, he used to work at a suicide prevention hotline as a counselor, then a supervisor and then worked his way up to a manager while I actively am going crazy trying to find ways to Ctb. And I can't even find a job. I have always been far more intelligent, capable, kind, empathetic and over all a better person.

He went back to our high school and became a teacher's assistant for special education but he used to bully me and others for our awkward neurodivergent tendencies. Mock and laugh at us.

The world will always revolve around white males.

So the person that bullied/belittled me and many others, gets to use his MANY privileges, work in a crises center trying to prevent people from CTBing and then goes to becoming a doc and allegedly "caring" about patients? while people exactly like him are the ones making people wanna Ctb. We see this time and time again of evil privileged people becoming docs for the status and wealth just to abuse the system and be negligent to patient and staff.

What a fucking joke. This earth is a circus.
He's probably the typical
racist, MAGA, frat boy grapist.

Honestly, even if he has "changed" I don't give a fuck. He doesn't deserve it. I hope he's miserable as a doc. You know what, I hope he becomes a Doc, congratuFUCKINGlations piece of shit.
I hope all the realizations of how shit and horrible being a doc is hits him 100 fold. I hope he suffers. The same reasons I quit.

Or maybe he'll be the one that constantly engages in medical malpractice and negligence. Or maybe he'll be joyful to serve the patients who are child grapists, PDFs, racists, grapists, misogynists, abusers etc while being a slave to the Hippocratic oath.

I am so INCREDIBLY happy I never proceeded with my plans to become a doc. I would have hated it and been miserable wanting to Ctb even more.

I swear if he ends up becoming my bullshit "soulmate" in the after life because the universe is actually funny and cruel like that, I'll find a way to CTB in the after life as well. Just leave me be with my cats for fuck sakes.

This world is going to lose a brilliant mind. I would have been a great doc, a great scientist. I could have saved so many lives, created cures, treated with kindness and empathy. Now, my ethics are the complete opposite, I want humanity to suffer and die. They don't deserve me. I'm going to gatekeep my brilliant mind. Fuck humanity and fuck humans. Humans deserve to rot in the filth they created. I hope we all fall to our demise.

I'm almost there.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Being good isn't requirement for these fields unfortunately, many shitty people are working in medicine, I know many successful people that are awful people a lot from my family actually, doctors, pharmacists, uni teachers, programmers, normal teachers; they all mask how shitty they are beneath. That doesn't mean I can't call them out, life is not a "game" you shouldn't get rewarded or not punished for "keeping yourself in check" , assholes are assholes regardless of how they present themselves, our society doesn't care. If they keep themselves in check and keep the "beast" away , they're fine to society.

 

[fedup1982]

Fuck life

 

[heldbyone]

Worst kind of ppl wirk in medical/ healthcare field most are cheaters . Money hungry and narcissistic im not surprised

 

[Obliviate]

Being good isn't requirement for these fields unfortunately, many shitty people are working in medicine, I know many successful people that are awful people a lot from my family actually, doctors, pharmacists, uni teachers, programmers, normal teachers; they all mask how shitty they are beneath. That doesn't mean I can't call them out, life is not a "game" you shouldn't get rewarded or not punished for "keeping yourself in check" , assholes are assholes regardless of how they present themselves, our society doesn't care. If they keep themselves in check and keep the "beast" away , they're fine to society.

Thank you, an actually comprehensive reply. This is spot on. Many see this trend quite a bit of "rich entitled" kids having the pathway for them carved when all they have to do is volunteer at some underprivileged clinic for a bit, being satisfactory enough on the emotional side of being a doc to go on and become just vile to the system.

Worst kind of ppl wirk in medical/ healthcare field most are cheaters . Money hungry and narcissistic im not surprised

Absolutely. The wealth and life status attracts evil people like flies. They go on to be successful and then bully their subordinates and students who just want a chance.

 

[nool]

I'm so sorry. I wish life were like the movies, where the shitheads end up miserable and alone, but unfortunately the universe has no mercy on us. Wish nothing but the best for you