Mustkeyknow
Experienced
- Feb 8, 2020
- 275
It's been about three months since my impulse ridden suicide attempt and even though I'm not "better" in any way, I definitely don't feel as crazy as I did that night. I still want to CTB though. Life sucks. There are good days and then there are bad days. The bad days overshadow the good ones by a long shot. It doesn't matter if I get better I'll always have this awful scars that remind me of this period in my life where I lost it all. I'm so embarrassed by them. How the fuck am i supposed to talk to them to a potential new friend, or a potential new lover? If anything they are just a reminder that I need to finish the job. My psychologist says they could mean I survived, but to survive what? Myself? That's just cray.