abigail
trying to get better for him ~
- Aug 10, 2024
- 63
Hi friends,
As some of you may know, I am a long time lurker of this forum (dating back to the subreddit days) & only recently created my account due to a mental breakdown which caused me to do things I now regret.
As a result of this breakdown, I forced myself into receiving therapy (specifically psychodynamic therapy, as suggested in one of my previous posts by a someone) - I have been having these sessions every Monday, Wednesday & Friday for 2 weeks now.
In this time, a lot has changed for me.
I don't wish to disclose everything that has been uncovered during my therapy sessions, as that will likely lead to deanonymisation, but I will share that I have now been diagnosed with a form of "dissociative identity disorder" which my therapist has said he believes is due to some trauma uncovered in a previous session.
This has, in a weird way, helped me. To know that there is an underlying cause for the pain i've been feeling, and to know that there is a road to getting better, and that I am on that road.
I believe this is going to be my last post here, as I wish to go back to being a passive observer (and hopefully not even that) of here rather than an active participant, as, quite honestly, I cry at the thought of any of you, my friends, from passing on.
Thank you to all who have helped me at my lowest moments, from those who replied to my posts giving advice and support, to those who I got to know over the live chat & PMs.
While I will never forget any of you, and I hope that you all continue to stay as strong as I know you can be, I really do hope I never speak to you again, as it hurts me every time.
@AbsentMindedHuman, @lynnschronicles & @Al Gul - You guys are awesome, thank you for being there for me when I needed you the most.
@yuzenda & @DipAndChips - I enjoyed our conversations in PMs, thank you both.
@bookie - You hold a special place in my heart, I hope you stay strong my dear, I love you.
To everyone else who i've talked to over the past few weeks that I haven't mentioned - it's not personal, I promise; I'm just going by my open PMs to jog my memory. Thank you all, truly.
Ba-bye for now my friends,
I love you all,
Abigail.
As some of you may know, I am a long time lurker of this forum (dating back to the subreddit days) & only recently created my account due to a mental breakdown which caused me to do things I now regret.
As a result of this breakdown, I forced myself into receiving therapy (specifically psychodynamic therapy, as suggested in one of my previous posts by a someone) - I have been having these sessions every Monday, Wednesday & Friday for 2 weeks now.
In this time, a lot has changed for me.
I don't wish to disclose everything that has been uncovered during my therapy sessions, as that will likely lead to deanonymisation, but I will share that I have now been diagnosed with a form of "dissociative identity disorder" which my therapist has said he believes is due to some trauma uncovered in a previous session.
This has, in a weird way, helped me. To know that there is an underlying cause for the pain i've been feeling, and to know that there is a road to getting better, and that I am on that road.
I believe this is going to be my last post here, as I wish to go back to being a passive observer (and hopefully not even that) of here rather than an active participant, as, quite honestly, I cry at the thought of any of you, my friends, from passing on.
Thank you to all who have helped me at my lowest moments, from those who replied to my posts giving advice and support, to those who I got to know over the live chat & PMs.
While I will never forget any of you, and I hope that you all continue to stay as strong as I know you can be, I really do hope I never speak to you again, as it hurts me every time.
@AbsentMindedHuman, @lynnschronicles & @Al Gul - You guys are awesome, thank you for being there for me when I needed you the most.
@yuzenda & @DipAndChips - I enjoyed our conversations in PMs, thank you both.
@bookie - You hold a special place in my heart, I hope you stay strong my dear, I love you.
To everyone else who i've talked to over the past few weeks that I haven't mentioned - it's not personal, I promise; I'm just going by my open PMs to jog my memory. Thank you all, truly.
Ba-bye for now my friends,
I love you all,
Abigail.
