APharmaDestroyedLife

APharmaDestroyedLife

Your RX drugs are likely your real problem
Nov 4, 2019
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I wanted to share my experience with Meto. Being a person who is afraid of all pharmaceuticals I decided I should test a small dose (5mg). Just to see what if any side effects I might get from it.

Yesterday around 2pm i took half of a 10mg pill (5mg) After about 30 minutes I became very emotionally numb , after about an hour I was having a hard time with sitting still. It did not seem to effect my face or tongue, but my legs felt really restless and twitchy. There was no real increase in my anxiety, i just felt really off and out of it. I took a 25mg benedryl about 4pm and the symptoms started to resolve about 30 minutes later.

I can't imagine what the 30mg stat dose will feel like for me personally but given what 5mg did to me I will not be doing a 2 or 3 day meto prep. Which makes me a little nervous because I don't want to fail at this, it seems that with N the 1 time stat dose works everytime, but with SN I am not sure, there seems to be an opinion that SN is more likely to succeed if you do the 2 or 3 day meto prep.

There seem to be plenty of people that have no symptoms from this drug at all. I am not writing this in an attempt to scare anyone, but i just thought the info could be helpful .

I still don't feel normal today, i find my hands cramping and my muscles seem to be a bit rigid. I also just experienced freezing hands and feet as well as about 20 minutes of shivering. I took another 25mg benedryl 20 minutes ago and things are starting to settle down.

It is worth mentioning that I have a history with Gabapentin as well as Benzos , so that may be part of the reason for the side effects.

My method is poisoning by ingestion so I will have to deal with these meto symptoms , so hopefully the STAT dose approach will work for me as I do not think I could handle 2 days of this drug being in my system. Maybe another antiemetic is safer, I am not sure. I should have done more research, but now I really dont have enough time left to get a different drug for this purpose.

Since the rapid decline in my health over the weekend , my day will likely come much sooner than I had planned. I want to leave this board with any info I can from personal experience before i check out for good.

I am Not nor will I ever in anyway encourage someone to ctb, but since i know a lot of people do not do much research outside of this forum, someone may find this info of some use.
 
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SinisterKid

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Thanks for posting, any info like this is invaluable to the community as a whole.
 
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Berlin76

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I took a tes of meto..

Nothing happened that was weird or out of the extraordinary whatever.

So it really depends on the person also.
 
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thank you for sharing your experience. i also have a lot of experience with benzos (i abuse Valium)

i posted in another thread that i didn't experience any side effects, though. i did have some anxiety but i ascribe that to my hypochondriac tendencies.
i'm sorry to hear you had a bad time. at least you had diphenhydramine to help with the side effects. i hope you can still persevere through it.
 
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APharmaDestroyedLife

APharmaDestroyedLife

Your RX drugs are likely your real problem
Nov 4, 2019
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i'm sorry to hear you had a bad time. at least you had diphenhydramine to help with the side effects. i hope you can still persevere through it.
Thank you, yes it's not to bad now. I think it's highly unlikely I will have any long term issues from a single 5mg dose. When I take my STAT dose before I take my final drink, I will most likely front load it with 20 mg of Valium. That should cover any serious side effects and also keep my anxiety down so I can take that final drink.
 
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Thank you, yes it's not to bad now. I think it's highly unlikely I will have any long term issues from a single 5mg dose. When I take my STAT dose before I take my final drink, I will most likely front load it with 20 mg of Valium. That should cover any serious side effects and also keep my anxiety down so I can take that final drink.

yeah, i wouldn't worry about it either. will just 20mg be fine for you? i have to take such high doses, it's ridiculous. 50mg just to feel anything. i've been abstaining from taking it for some time now in hopes of lowering my tolerance for when the day comes in January...
 
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APharmaDestroyedLife

Your RX drugs are likely your real problem
Nov 4, 2019
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yeah, i wouldn't worry about it either. will just 20mg be fine for you? i have to take such high doses, it's ridiculous. 50mg just to feel anything. i've been abstaining from taking it for some time now in hopes of lowering my tolerance for when the day comes in January...
Yeah 20 would set me good I think. I am afraid if I did more than that I would either fall asleep or feel so good I would forget about going through with it.

Benzos are pretty gnarly drugs to just quit especially at 50mg of Valium... I am sure you know all this already, but be careful those withdrawals can come out of nowhere.
 
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you know yourself and your tolerance/metabolism the best. i wish you luck! :hug:

they really are. i went through some withdrawals already, so i know the drill, yeah.
 
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Thank you for sharing this. I don't know a lot about pills and didn't know anything about Meto before coming here. I was considering doing a test also to see if it had an effect on me. Now I think that is something I am going to do for sure just so I know for when the time comes.
 
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I think a stat dose should be fine.

This is about N rather than SN, but explains the pros/cons of stat dose vs 48 hour anti-emetic regime, and covers some EPS and anti-emetic testing points - see "Notes" section... (the anti-emetic regime is the same for N and SN) :
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/n-protocol-regime-regimen-notes.27092/
There's also quite a bit of info in additional posts lower down in the thread (at some point I may re-consolidate).
 
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