Method My possible methods, either way this is probably it

[CerebralVortex]

Method 1:
I'll wait until later at night, around 11:30, and then drive about an hour out to a nearby city. Once there, I'll park my car in a nearby lot, and lie on train tracks to ctb.

Method 2:
I'll fast for at least 12 hrs, and at around 1-2, I'll try partial until it works. Ik I've have problems with it before, but I'll just try to endure what I can and hope I lose consciousness early on.

I know that the first method is a very controversial one, so I may not try it, but either way im done. I cant live like this anymore. In the next 2 days I will Ctb, no matter what. I wish all of you well, and I apologize for anything I've done to hurt those here/those I know.

 

[kittycat32]

I hope you find peace

 

[gottacheckout]

I'm so sorry it has come to this for you. May you find the peace you seek.

Best to find a train in between towns, they run faster

 

[CerebralVortex]

I'm so sorry it has come to this for you. May you find the peace you seek.

Best to find a train in between towns, they run faster

Thank you very much for your kind words and advice.

I would find a faster one, but I live in the middle of nowhere, and the trains in the city run an avg of 65mph. Im pretty sure that's fast enough, especially with lying on the rails, but I could be wrong

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand finding it unbearable to exist, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm sorry it's come to this for you. I hope you find the peace you deserve.

And, as an aside, and I'm only speaking for me right now, but the way I look at things, the last thing I'm going to be worried about is how "controversial" a method may, or may not, be when my time comes. I mean my ctb is about me and me alone. It only matters what I think about my method and if it's best for me. My ctb isn't about what anyone else might think about the way I choose to go. My autonomy is entirely about my life, and my death, if/when I so choose. I understand everyone is different and has different feelings on the subject, but that's the way it is for me.