deadfaery
i was not built for longevity but for holding pain
- Mar 2, 2025
- 4
Well I've been planning to ctb for a long time but I finally have something that will actually give me a very high chance of success. I was finally able to get my psychiatrist to prescribe me amitriptyline and one of my best friends oded on that and would have ctb if they didn't get found after having a seizure. They were in a coma for a few days afterwards so even if I'm not totally successful on this go around I'll at least be in a coma for a bit. I'm gonna stock up on my ami and hopefully get my dose increased to 100mg (we are starting at 25mg) and take everything I've stocked up on which will hopefully be around 8-10 grams then take the pills with a smoothie and get a good nights sleep forever. I feel really at peace with my decision and feel like I can try to enjoy the last few months of my life with my friends and family before putting myself down.
