My plan

[XBunnyBoyx]

Hello!

I am very happy about my decision to CTB sooner than later. I have foraged over 200 poison hemlock seeds, and after lots of consideration, I think I have a pretty solid plan so far.

This is what I have in mind. It's a 3-Phase plan.

1. Inebriation: My first portion of the plan will be me getting as high as I possibly can on multiple depressants, like alcohol (probably using champagne), kratom tea, and various Delta products to get a relaxing high. During that time, I'll likely reflect on a lot of things about life and why I'm glad I'm finally making this decision. Likely, I'll feel free from the pain I've experienced over half of my life and freedom from a world where I have nothing and nobody.

2. Sleep: Further inebriating myself, I'll drink sleep aid and mix it with alcohol so I can start to fall asleep slowly. Making it to this point, I definitely will have accepted my fate and felt that this is the right decision. The purpose of this step is to prevent me from having a chance to change my mind.

3. Poison: Right before I go to sleep, I'll consume as much of the ground up hemlock seeds as possible. By this point, I expect to be pretty much asleep, maybe even comatose, either possibly choke on vomit (worst case scenario) or stop breathing. Because I live with nobody, the likelihood that I'll be gone within a day is high.

I'm very happy that I'm finally choosing to be free. I feel like I've done everything I really can in life. All I have to look forward to in this life is trauma, failure, and loneliness. There's something better for me somewhere else. I could do something better in another world.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Hello, I'm sorry that it came to this for you in this world. It sounds like you have it all planned, that you will be leaving in peace to the next world, and I also wish you only the best on this journey.

I never knew of these seeds and have learned something new from you, thank you for sharing. It appears they are even sold on amazon, however for gardening purposes it seems. A thought came to mind that perhaps it is worth looking into as an alternative option to SN. Anyways, when are you planning on implementing your plan?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

By all accounts, hemlock is a horrendous way to die. Lots of pain and discomfort. By no means a peaceful death.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Sbetto]

Hello, I'm sorry that it came to this for you in this world. It sounds like you have it all planned, that you will be leaving in peace to the next world, and I also wish you only the best on this journey.

I never knew of these seeds and have learned something new from you, thank you for sharing. It appears they are even sold on amazon, however for gardening purposes it seems. A thought came to mind that perhaps it is worth looking into as an alternative option to SN. Anyways, when are you planning on implementing your plan?

I don't think it's a good idea to compare death by hemlock to death by SN.
From what I understand, SN causes you to pass out within about 15 minutes because not enough oxygen flows to the brain, and you die unconscious due to respiratory failure.
Hemlock, which I assume is Conium maculatum (the same plant used by Socrates), is a poisonous plant that causes progressive muscle paralysis until it paralyzes the respiratory muscles, like the diaphragm.
So, unless you are heavily sedated, as the original poster described, it is a very painful and distressing process because you will remain conscious throughout the entire suffocation process caused by muscle paralysis.
You would feel yourself suffocating as if you were being hanged

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I don't think it's a good idea to compare death by hemlock to death by SN.
From what I understand, SN causes you to pass out within about 15 minutes because not enough oxygen flows to the brain, and you die unconscious due to respiratory failure.
Hemlock, which I assume is Conium maculatum (the same plant used by Socrates), is a poisonous plant that causes progressive muscle paralysis until it paralyzes the respiratory muscles, like the diaphragm.
So, unless you are heavily sedated, as the original poster described, it is a very painful and distressing process because you will remain conscious throughout the entire suffocation process caused by muscle paralysis.
You would feel yourself suffocating as if you were being hanged

Oh dear, thank you for explaining this.