On Replay
What a day What a day
- Sep 23, 2022
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I'm a believer. Many are not.
IDK what comes after this. I only believe out of FEAR. Who wants to burn in fucking fire and be tortured for eternity ? Not I, Even a fucking paper cut is an inconvenience to me.
There are verses that say God never fails us, he never lies to us. I feel I was failed when my asshole of a mother decided to have me. Probably to try to keep my father around. Pitiful.
She's Tossed me aside like garbage more than once. And then had the audacity to try to have me baby her when her new life treated her like shit.
I believe, but I can't do this shit anymore. So I'll pray , I'll pray I'm forgiven till I K.O. , I'll beg and I'll plead and hope that I'm accepted
BUT WHO REALLY KNOWS ???? WE'RE ALL HUMAN, HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHATS REAL OR NOT REAL. What came before me ? How am I supposed to know ? Why do I have to be punished for not knowing ? For being weak ?
All I can do right is cry.
Mind you, I just busted a hole in my wall. I have to pay for that shit , one thing after another. One screw up after another . Fucking sick, life is a sick fucking joke
IDK what comes after this. I only believe out of FEAR. Who wants to burn in fucking fire and be tortured for eternity ? Not I, Even a fucking paper cut is an inconvenience to me.
There are verses that say God never fails us, he never lies to us. I feel I was failed when my asshole of a mother decided to have me. Probably to try to keep my father around. Pitiful.
She's Tossed me aside like garbage more than once. And then had the audacity to try to have me baby her when her new life treated her like shit.
I believe, but I can't do this shit anymore. So I'll pray , I'll pray I'm forgiven till I K.O. , I'll beg and I'll plead and hope that I'm accepted
BUT WHO REALLY KNOWS ???? WE'RE ALL HUMAN, HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHATS REAL OR NOT REAL. What came before me ? How am I supposed to know ? Why do I have to be punished for not knowing ? For being weak ?
All I can do right is cry.
Mind you, I just busted a hole in my wall. I have to pay for that shit , one thing after another. One screw up after another . Fucking sick, life is a sick fucking joke