getoutgirl
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- Mar 17, 2025
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Long ass detailed plan & method + update diary on the process
What I want is
1. Disappear without a single trace and 2. CBT in such a way my body will never be found.
For that 2º I thought two ways, water and land
First I considered Water -> Sink in the sea/deep lake with some weight (chains for example). But method can't be drowning. Painful.
- Though of jumping from a bridge with weight (so I sink once I hit the water). But all of the bridges over water in my country are not high enough Or have police + cameras. No.
- Thought of swimming to the ocean with weight and big life jacket (that'd keep me afloat) take SN. When I start feeling myself leaving, poke the lifejacket with a needle so it slowly loses air. Die from the SN, then sink in time when deflated. Problem: I can't order SN as that would leave bank account traces + live in Europe so not risking police and all
No water.
So Land it is
I Need to Bury my Own Dead Body (said no serial killer ever, lucky fucks got that way easier)
How?
First, I'd go deep into the woods. My country doesn't have too dense forests so I can't risk dying in the open -> Grave.
As for that, thought of two methods.
(heads up, I can't draw for shit)
OPTION 1: Vertical Grave + Partial Hanging
To consider:
OPTION 2: Horizontal Grave + Tent Contraption + Night-Night
To consider:
To buy:
On part 1. How to Disappear Completely?
I want to leave and get to that forest with no traces as to where I might have gone. Also make it seem that I've run away, not committed suicide, make that believable. For that:
And that'd be it...
If I execute all that... then yeah I think it could work.
Pretty set on following through as of now.
I have a Month to prepare. Set for late may.
I will update on the alternative, as in what would happen if I chicken out and it's consequences.
I'd appreciate any advice, anything I might be missing or anything really. Honestly I just desperatedly needed to get this out of my head and into some order.
End of long ass post.
What I want is
1. Disappear without a single trace and 2. CBT in such a way my body will never be found.
For that 2º I thought two ways, water and land
First I considered Water -> Sink in the sea/deep lake with some weight (chains for example). But method can't be drowning. Painful.
- Though of jumping from a bridge with weight (so I sink once I hit the water). But all of the bridges over water in my country are not high enough Or have police + cameras. No.
- Thought of swimming to the ocean with weight and big life jacket (that'd keep me afloat) take SN. When I start feeling myself leaving, poke the lifejacket with a needle so it slowly loses air. Die from the SN, then sink in time when deflated. Problem: I can't order SN as that would leave bank account traces + live in Europe so not risking police and all
No water.
So Land it is
I Need to Bury my Own Dead Body (said no serial killer ever, lucky fucks got that way easier)
How?
First, I'd go deep into the woods. My country doesn't have too dense forests so I can't risk dying in the open -> Grave.
As for that, thought of two methods.
(heads up, I can't draw for shit)
OPTION 1: Vertical Grave + Partial Hanging
To consider:
- Would have to dig a deep fking hole, Vietnam style (not me in the image), ~6 feet maybe. + forest so roots and soil condition
- Not sure yet about how to close the top once inside. Could get artsy crafty at the spot, glue some dirt on a plank.
OPTION 2: Horizontal Grave + Tent Contraption + Night-Night
To consider:
- Again, big grave, but less depth required (drawing is out of proportion I suck) + roots and soil condition + lot of effort digging and putting dirt back in
- Would use old tent parts: metal poles and plastic canvas fabric to hold the dirt and leave a space underneath for me. Then would collapse the entrance once inside pulling from the vertical cloth (some more dirt on top so that the terrain is left sort of flat up there). And just like that buried myself :D. Then would use night-night in a reclined position, with enough space.
To buy:
- Hanging / Night Night kits, all the parts
- Shovel
- Energy bars, water bottles, some food for grave digging (It'd be some hours and I have noodle arms, I'd need those)
- Big mountain backpack to carry everything (must fit)
- Two sets of clothes, one plain with hood/hat/glasses, the other for mountain
- Old tent from family's house
- Flaslight, Swiss Knife or knife for roots or in case
- Other needs that come up
On part 1. How to Disappear Completely?
I want to leave and get to that forest with no traces as to where I might have gone. Also make it seem that I've run away, not committed suicide, make that believable. For that:
- Change all passwords, delete history, delete google account (may take 2 months) and every account or online presence. Take with me all my electronics, get rid of them in dumpster. Break SIM card before leaving.
- Leave a letter with alibi, state voluntary act so police is not involved. (Still have to think that one out)
- Take my suicide notebooks, all evidence, also dump them.
- Pack suitcase with tons of clothes. Take food, toothbrush, personal stuff. Make It look like I've taken them for use. Get rid of them promptly in dumpster (different ones).
- Cut hair and move around in newly bought clothes obscuring face so CCTV won't recognize my usual clothes at least. Change to mountain ones once in forest to not arouse suspicion.
- Travel to the location via transport that does not require ID (I know which one) dump ID also.
- Make sure the location is a forest with no hiking routes, in a very secluded area. Plan the trip there.
And that'd be it...
If I execute all that... then yeah I think it could work.
Pretty set on following through as of now.
I have a Month to prepare. Set for late may.
I will update on the alternative, as in what would happen if I chicken out and it's consequences.
I'd appreciate any advice, anything I might be missing or anything really. Honestly I just desperatedly needed to get this out of my head and into some order.
End of long ass post.
