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grown ass man
- Feb 12, 2023
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i feel like shit. i'm deteriorating in every aspect and i just want to die as soon as possible. before, i only felt at peace when i was sleeping, but now that's ruined. i keep having nightmares and i'm scared to sleep now. sometimes the nightmares consist of some typical unrealistic scenario like being chased by a monster, which still leave me anxious, but i don't even get those that often anymore. my nightmares are scarily realistic and mostly consist of someone i deeply love and care about leaving me or dying.
i can't even determine if/when i'm awake when i have these. i spend half of the day checking my phone, checking on the person constantly because i have no idea if they're actually gone or if it was just in the nightmare. it takes forever for that anxiety to go away and for me to realize that i'm no longer in a nightmare.
because of this, i'm constantly anxious. i'm scared of sleeping now. i'm tired of this confusion and anxiety. there's now no area in my life where i experience comfort. i just want to die, i can't live like this.
i apologize for poor grammar or spelling, my head won't stop spinning and i'm trying my best.
i can't even determine if/when i'm awake when i have these. i spend half of the day checking my phone, checking on the person constantly because i have no idea if they're actually gone or if it was just in the nightmare. it takes forever for that anxiety to go away and for me to realize that i'm no longer in a nightmare.
because of this, i'm constantly anxious. i'm scared of sleeping now. i'm tired of this confusion and anxiety. there's now no area in my life where i experience comfort. i just want to die, i can't live like this.
i apologize for poor grammar or spelling, my head won't stop spinning and i'm trying my best.
