Story My Personal Thread: My suicide and legacy

[Lucifer’s Son]

If you're going to walmart Dramamine is an anti-nausea medication for reference
That's the only one I know of without looking them up, you might be able to find better options ^^"

I don't think otc ones will do the trick. I used emetrol. I might be able to get more zofran prescribed because of a colon issue I have.

 

[RawRX3]

I don't think otc ones will do the trick. I used emetrol. I might be able to get more zofran prescribed because of a colon issue I have.

That makes sense mm mm

Dramamine is definitely not as strong as prescription stuff, I just wasn't sure how fast you'd be able to get something given things

I took dramamine with other stuff before when I was experimenting with otc highs (which looking back was probably cutting it close to ODing at times XD ) and it helped a lot for not throwing things up :3
(don't really recommend otc highs but they were interesting lol)

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

That makes sense mm mm

Dramamine is definitely not as strong as prescription stuff, I just wasn't sure how fast you'd be able to get something given things

I took dramamine with other stuff before when I was experimenting with otc highs (which looking back was probably cutting it close to ODing at times XD ) and it helped a lot for not throwing things up :3
(don't really recommend otc highs but they were interesting lol)

I've done that too, mostly dxm, though I did try dph once too. I even ate 200 datura seeds. It was definitely an interesting experience!

 

[RawRX3]

I've done that too, mostly dxm, though I did try dph once too. I even ate 200 datura seeds. It was definitely an interesting experience!

200 sounds crazy omg XD

I don't know much about datura, only that it tends to not be a pleasant high like other things

Not that pleasant highs are always the point though lol

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I'm so sorry, existence itself is horrible.
There's so much suffering, there's nothing wrong about being trans or anything good. I hope you find the ultimate peace and freedom.

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

I'm currently rectally injecting it. It's not that bad, and I already had an irritated rectum from other issues. Not sure what are actual symptoms vs. psychosomatic yet. If this is it for me, then goodbye. :) If you do anything, wish for me to end up where I want to, and for my dad to have the easiest time possible.

 

[RawRX3]

<3

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

It feels weird, but not bad… almost euphoric. It's getting harder to string my thoughts together
I feel woozy, haha~ I hope this means it's actually working and I don't survive my 7th or 8th attempt
My ears have begun popping from the hypotension

 

[RawRX3]

hoping we meet again another time Lucifer, let's be good friends (if you want to then)

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

Things are progressing slowly. There's also a weird, sweet taste in my mouth. I'm listening to my favorite music.
I'm just in shock (in a good way) that one of my attempts is finally and actually going to work.

 

[GroundControl]

How are you feeling? Things progressing okay? I hope this is peaceful for you, stranger.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Just seeing this now. I hope you get what you want. You're likely gone by now, if not, please update us if you can. Otherwise, rest in peace .

 

[Passenger4224]

So many attempts, hats off to you - hope you found your peace

 

[iguazo falls]

i hope you are resting ok and not in pain, and if you happen to reincarnate i am wishing you fulfillment and peace <3

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

I just woke up this morning, perfectly fine except some ringing in my ear. At this point I'm convinced something out there is forcing me to be kept alive. If that's the case, I sure as fuck up I get some sort of reward for enduring everything I have. I'm going to be away from this forum, at least for now. It's too depressing seeing other people accomplish their goal of dying. I wish you all well.
Now that I'm up and moving, I'm noticing that my vision and my head are a bit weird. I don't care if it's permanent, because this body is not me. I can try to record any specific effects if you want. Anyway, I won't be leaving the forum after all, I think. I was just really mad and super embarrassed when I woke up. Yall are still really good for support and comraderie.
I am an utter failure at everything I do.

 

[RawRX3]

I just woke up this morning, perfectly fine except some ringing in my ear. At this point I'm convinced something out there is forcing me to be kept alive. If that's the case, I sure as fuck up I get some sort of reward for enduring everything I have. I'm going to be away from this forum, at least for now. It's too depressing seeing other people accomplish their goal of dying. I wish you all well.
Now that I'm up and moving, I'm noticing that my vision and my head are a bit weird. I don't care if it's permanent, because this body is not me. I can try to record any specific effects if you want. Anyway, I won't be leaving the forum after all, I think. I was just really mad and super embarrassed when I woke up. Yall are still really good for support and comraderie.
I am an utter failure at everything I do.

Am so sorry T_T

Nothing to feel embarrassed about though, just means maybe next time

All the love, care, and support <3

 

[HNR_]

So sorry that the SN didn't work, some folks can be more unlucky than others when it comes to attempts so try to not be harsh on yourself
Sending you a virtual hug

 

[RawRX3]

Hope you're doing okay or as okay as you can be <3

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

Hope you're doing okay or as okay as you can be <3

I am, thanks~ I have a second method lined up that I'll name once it arrives.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Sorry for your experience, what a let down. I guess it really needs to be absorbed into the small intestine to be released into the bloodstream so it can do what we want. @sadbh—itstimetogo🤎, I guess thanks to OP, we know this is not the way to avoid vomiting with SN that we've all hoped to find.

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

I'm snorting a gram of what was advertised as heroin. If I die, then cool, if not, this feels pretty good and I get to have a relaxing evening. I also found the zofran that was prescribed to me, so I can use that for any nausea.
(I didn't get fent testing strips because they're illegal in my state and I was scared through the delivery process as it was.)

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I'm snorting a gram of what was advertised as heroin. If I die, then cool, if not, this feels pretty good and I get to have a relaxing evening. I also found the zofran that was prescribed to me, so I can use that for any nausea.
(I didn't get fent testing strips because they're illegal in my state and I was scared through the delivery process as it was.)

Oh, damn. Best wishes .

 

[RawRX3]

I'm snorting a gram of what was advertised as heroin. If I die, then cool, if not, this feels pretty good and I get to have a relaxing evening. I also found the zofran that was prescribed to me, so I can use that for any nausea.
(I didn't get fent testing strips because they're illegal in my state and I was scared through the delivery process as it was.)

let us know how it goes! *curious* :3

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I hope you've found peace . If not, I hope you're doing ok. Update us please, if you can .

 

[RawRX3]

<3