My partial hanging attempt

[D0wn4nd0ut]

Hello SS community, I'm new here and already have so much to talk about in such a short time because I plan on ctb in a very short time.

Well, around two weeks ago I looped a leather belt around a metal bar in my closet, tested the loop out, and was just trying it out to see how it felt..

I wasn't planning on fully ctb at the time and I may have almost accidentally went all the way.

I put the belt around my neck and kind of slumped back with my back to the wall and with legs and feet out in front of me and let my hands go freely..

I had no idea how fast this sort of thing happens..

What seemed like 5 seconds of numb and lightheadedness turned into me blacking out accidentally and I guess it's weird because it's like when you're sleeping and something you hear translates to your dreams and you wake up because of it, I heard the sound of my throat trying to swallow really hard and also my brother on his tablet watching a video in the next room..

I immediately tried to stand up and get my self straight (because my door was still open as well and anyone could have just walked in and seen me) but it turned into a weird scramble of sorts of me lifelessly trying to loosen the belt strap (which was truly a rough experience) and get my head out of the loop..

I managed and when I did my heart was racing and I was shaky as all hell.. I figured I was almost there and weeks later I wonder if that would have been it.. what's your guys thoughts

I can answer any questions

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Hello SS community, I'm new here and already have so much to talk about in such a short time because I plan on ctb in a very short time.

Well, around two weeks ago I looped a leather belt around a metal bar in my closet, tested the loop out, and was just trying it out to see how it felt..

I wasn't planning on fully ctb at the time and I may have almost accidentally went all the way.

I put the belt around my neck and kind of slumped back with my back to the wall and with legs and feet out in front of me and let my hands go freely..

I had no idea how fast this sort of thing happens..

What seemed like 5 seconds of numb and lightheadedness turned into me blacking out accidentally and I guess it's weird because it's like when you're sleeping and something you hear translates to your dreams and you wake up because of it, I heard the sound of my throat trying to swallow really hard and also my brother on his tablet watching a video in the next room..

I immediately tried to stand up and get my self straight (because my door was still open as well and anyone could have just walked in and seen me) but it turned into a weird scramble of sorts of me lifelessly trying to loosen the belt strap (which was truly a rough experience) and get my head out of the loop..

I managed and when I did my heart was racing and I was shaky as all hell.. I figured I was almost there and weeks later I wonder if that would have been it.. what's your guys thoughts

I can answer any questions

Scary stuff!
Many don't manage to pass out so easily, reporting that it feels like their head is about to explode, and a lot of pain.

Welcome to SS :)

 

[D0wn4nd0ut]

Thank you! No exploding feeling at all and yes it was quick, I'm 34 and use to do the choking game thing with my hands when I was a teen and would make myself pass out quick, I kinda used that feeling for the placement of the belt and bam I was out!
So how close was I, I had no SI during until I noticed I wasn't supposed to do it then and there?

 

[nora.]

Scary stuff!
Many don't manage to pass out so easily, reporting that it feels like their head is about to explode, and a lot of pain.

Welcome to SS :)

yes. i can confirm. if you dont put the rope in the right way, it really feels like your head is about to explode. you can hear your heartbeat in your neck, and it feels like you can breathe but no matter how much you breathe, it will be not enough. you cant open your eyes too im not sure why. please put the rope in the right way before you go, if you dont it will be a living hell.
may i ask where do you put the rope around your neck? i plan to go this way so i dont wanna mess it up.

 

[D0wn4nd0ut]

yes. i can confirm. if you dont put the rope in the right way, it really feels like your head is about to explode. you can hear your heartbeat in your neck, and it feels like you can breathe but no matter how much you breathe, it will be not enough. you cant open your eyes too im not sure why. please put the rope in the right way before you go, if you dont it will be a living hell.
may i ask where do you put the rope around your neck? i plan to go this way so i dont wanna mess it up.

I used a leather belt, never tried a rope..

I'd say it was about half way up my neck, enough that when I passed out the sound of me trying to swallow was what woke me up.

 

[icarus3/21]

Wish it was this easy

Hello SS community, I'm new here and already have so much to talk about in such a short time because I plan on ctb in a very short time.

Well, around two weeks ago I looped a leather belt around a metal bar in my closet, tested the loop out, and was just trying it out to see how it felt..

I wasn't planning on fully ctb at the time and I may have almost accidentally went all the way.

I put the belt around my neck and kind of slumped back with my back to the wall and with legs and feet out in front of me and let my hands go freely..

I had no idea how fast this sort of thing happens..

What seemed like 5 seconds of numb and lightheadedness turned into me blacking out accidentally and I guess it's weird because it's like when you're sleeping and something you hear translates to your dreams and you wake up because of it, I heard the sound of my throat trying to swallow really hard and also my brother on his tablet watching a video in the next room..

I immediately tried to stand up and get my self straight (because my door was still open as well and anyone could have just walked in and seen me) but it turned into a weird scramble of sorts of me lifelessly trying to loosen the belt strap (which was truly a rough experience) and get my head out of the loop..

I managed and when I did my heart was racing and I was shaky as all hell.. I figured I was almost there and weeks later I wonder if that would have been it.. what's your guys thoughts

I can answer any questions

Wish it was this easy for me,all I get is the blood rushing to my head shit and then nothing

 

[Tbest]

Hi im also planning very soon ctb with partial, on my experience i kinda got lucky because my 'sweet' spot is above my adam apple so as long the rope is there i just have a mild discomfort on the skin and i almost passed out with no pain or chocking feeling, before i stopped. Goodluck with your ctb and hope for you a peaceful exit

 

[Spitfire]

Thank you! No exploding feeling at all and yes it was quick, I'm 34 and use to do the choking game thing with my hands when I was a teen and would make myself pass out quick, I kinda used that feeling for the placement of the belt and bam I was out!
So how close was I, I had no SI during until I noticed I wasn't supposed to do it then and there?

In grade school around 3rd grade this fellow in my school gym class showed us all something in the locker room. He took a willing participant and put his hands softly on his neck, presumably feeling for the pulse, and it was like... What the heck just happened because of when our friends eyes did something weird and he went totally limp.. while this fellow was squeezing around his neck and making this crazy facial expression. He let up after about 3-5 seconds and caught our friend in his arms until he woke back up.

I just thought that was amazing!

 

[D0wn4nd0ut]

Wish it was this easy

Wish it was this easy for me,all I get is the blood rushing to my head shit and then nothing

I tried like that a few times already, and almost pass out every time, but now I switched it up to where I turn the other way and put my head in and the top of my head against the wall facing the ground and lean into it the opposite way with my arms hanging down and legs and feet at 45 degree angle behind me instead of the sitting/leaning method..

Tried that multiple times and that one will take me quick but I fear once I pass out my legs will buckle and I'll slam into the wall making noise..

Sorry if I made it hard to understand but yeah it seems I must have the sweet spot everyone talks about, it's just finding the right time when nobody will hear me, I don't know how loud something like this is and I don't want to be found and end up in a psych ward or damaged because I have a really good job at the moment but life is crumbling on me so it has to work first time for me

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I can answer any questions

Can I ask what brought you to SS, and why you feel you need to ctb?

 

[D0wn4nd0ut]

In grade school around 3rd grade this fellow in my school gym class showed us all something in the locker room. He took a willing participant and put his hands softly on his neck, presumably feeling for the pulse, and it was like... What the heck just happened because of when our friends eyes did something weird and he went totally limp.. while this fellow was squeezing around his neck and making this crazy facial expression. He let up after about 3-5 seconds and caught our friend in his arms until he woke back up.

I just thought that was amazing!

Yup, that's it..
The friends and I would dabble in this way before I heard it was called the choking game, turns out that's what we were playing..

Made plenty of friends pass out and myself as well, it's strange how I could make myself though sometime I just hit the tingly feeling then back off and it's like a dream state for a few seconds

Can I ask what brought you to SS, and why you feel you need to ctb?

My life has been a mess, a weird journey of ups, downs, lefts, and rights.

Almost all of my family(85%) has died from overdose, murder, suicide, and alcohol abuse..

I hear the people in my small town say my family is cursed because something is always happening, I just want out of it too, call me another one in my families book but I feel like the depression it's all caused me is just making me ruin every relationship or friendship I ever had, right now I have nobody and it hurts way to bad

 

[CivilizationV]

I used a leather belt, never tried a rope..

I'd say it was about half way up my neck, enough that when I passed out the sound of me trying to swallow was what woke me up.

Below or above Adam's apple?

 

[WornOutLife]

Hey bro, welcome!

I've also failed at partial. Had taken 100 pills so as to "pass out" more easily but I wasn't able to hang myself properle and I ended up in a comma for 2 days lol. I just suck at partial.

 

[D0wn4nd0ut]

Below or above Adam's apple?

Right over it

Hey bro, welcome!

I've also failed at partial. Had taken 100 pills so as to "pass out" more easily but I wasn't able to hang myself properle and I ended up in a comma for 2 days lol. I just suck at partial.

Thank you man!

Damn! What went wrong? If you don't mind me asking bro..

 

[WatermelonMel]

Thank you! No exploding feeling at all and yes it was quick, I'm 34 and use to do the choking game thing with my hands when I was a teen and would make myself pass out quick, I kinda used that feeling for the placement of the belt and bam I was out!
So how close was I, I had no SI during until I noticed I wasn't supposed to do it then and there?

What are your thoughts on the Night Night method https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-night-night-method-mega-thread.6834/ vs the Partial Hanging?

 

[D0wn4nd0ut]

What are your thoughts on the Night Night method https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-night-night-method-mega-thread.6834/ vs the Partial Hanging?

I've read some about it, I'm still skeptical about it honestly..

I've thought about a couple balled up pairs of socks on each side combined with the belt but haven't tried it to know..

I assume it would cut off air quicker and also make me pass out quicker..

I may have to give it a go and I'm hoping at some point one of these attempts may just accidentally give me peace..

I just don't want to make a lot of noise and someone find me too soon and cause my life more pain and agony, I would rather it be silent without any coughing, vomiting, or choking because definitely someone will run in and if they saw me even attempting something like this.. I'm definitely in a psych ward and losing my job.. I want it to where they just find me the next morning and I'm far too gone by that point.

 

[D0wn4nd0ut]

Just practiced another variation of partial and I was on my way out, it was totally painless, I was semi conscious but was closer to being unconscious than I've been in any attempt.

My SI was trying to save me and it couldn't do anything..

I had to will myself out of the situation in the most confusing way possible and if I couldn't of finally accomplished it, I would have been gone in minutes.

The most assuring part about it was none of it actually hurt, the only part that hurt me was the escape as I was going unconscious, I even stumbled away after and I have no idea how my family didn't hear the struggle..

Squeaky chair, squeaky metal bar, and the sound of me trying to undo the belt buckle was super loud and they were two rooms away, granted they had the tv on and were watching it.

I'll answer any questions as I think this may just be my way out and I'm more than sure it's gonna work from what I felt.

It's been around 20 minutes since and I still can't walk a straight line and I'm really shaking with work in an hour

 

[Last chance]

Just practiced another variation of partial and I was on my way out, it was totally painless, I was semi conscious but was closer to being unconscious than I've been in any attempt.

My SI was trying to save me and it couldn't do anything..

I had to will myself out of the situation in the most confusing way possible and if I couldn't of finally accomplished it, I would have been gone in minutes.

The most assuring part about it was none of it actually hurt, the only part that hurt me was the escape as I was going unconscious, I even stumbled away after and I have no idea how my family didn't hear the struggle..

Squeaky chair, squeaky metal bar, and the sound of me trying to undo the belt buckle was super loud and they were two rooms away, granted they had the tv on and were watching it.

I'll answer any questions as I think this may just be my way out and I'm more than sure it's gonna work from what I felt.

It's been around 20 minutes since and I still can't walk a straight line and I'm really shaking with work in an hour

This sounds interesting,what did you do? I hope you make it through work.

 

[D0wn4nd0ut]

This sounds interesting,what did you do? I hope you make it through work.

I get off in around 25 minutes, but it's been a weird day, my neck isn't bruised or red but my carotid on my right side "feels" swollen or just out of sorts, and it's like I'm in a dream today, I wonder if anyone has passed from injury later that day or in a couple days from something like this..

My heart is kinda beating odd today too btw

 

[D0wn4nd0ut]

This sounds interesting,what did you do?

Ok, I'm not encouraging anyone to do anything that I explain here because it's really easy to accidentally ctb from this.. If you aren't ready, don't do it because it was hard to get myself out of it.

I used said method from the beginning of this thread only I modified it with a chair, I stood up on the chair in my closet, put my head in the loop and tried to kneel (I tied the belt higher this time so the loop was higher this time as well for stability and my weight so I know it won't just break from my whole body weight by chance, it'll just be half of my body weight but enough to perform the hanging and tightness around my neck), when I knelt down on the chair with my face facing the back of the chair I noticed my knees couldn't fully touch the cushion..

When I pulled the belt buckle tighter to the back of my neck and let my hands free and to my side, I blacked out within maybe 2-3 seconds I'd say and time instantly went away, all I know after that was that sound came back again that "barely" got me out of being unconscious of me gasping, kinda like a dry heave before you throw up or like when you have the hiccups but I didn't feel like throwing up, I could hear me trying to swallow at the same time too, but I couldn't completely feel either experience that I was having until I purposely got myself up.

My arms, legs, and hands couldn't work right and I struggled to get back to my feet and everything I tried seemed like I was missing a step before it, I tried to loosen the belt buckle but it was too tight then I figured I had to stand myself up but my legs were convulsing so I had to kinda willpower to grab the bar to get my legs into the straight position to stand straight while the life was leaving me then when I tried to undo the buckle finally it seemed like I couldn't, it was really confusing and I felt any moment wrong could have been my last.

Finally I unloosened the buckle after struggling and stumbled away from the chair and onto my bed, in shock that I had to of been close to being gone a moment before.

When I was semi-conscious I had a choice to go or not.. fight or flight.. I knew it wasn't the right time.. I got free.. next time I may not be able to..

If I left out anything you guys want to know ask me and I'll answer..

All I know is partial hanging when done right will take you fast and painless from what I experienced so far..

 

[SadPsych]

Idk if you are still around, but can you explain how you tied the belt??