My new theory

[hopelessgirl]

So I have been severely suicidal since 2021. I feel like my time is up soon and I can go with a good conscience, because I have tried. I have three weeks of transcranial magnetic stimulation left to do, and if it hasn't worked I will go with hanging.

Anyways. Every day added to my life adds to my motivation to go. Every day is agony and torture. Like a prison.

I'm so suicidal now that I have come to the conclusion that every human being must secretly and deep down wish to die. And that that is the reason we can't get assisted suicide in most countries: because most of us would have wanted to use it and then we would not be able to live as slaves in this awful place.

Bought a pack of beer. Only thing that can make a couple of hours feel alright.

Have a great weekend everyone

 

[avalokitesvara]

I come to the same conclusion sometimes. And I start having some delusional grandiose thoughts like what if my suicide triggers a wave of them in people who knew me, and then the people who knew those people... Like if one person admits life isn't worth living and chooses to end it, it will give others license to act on their own secret belief that life isn't worth living. I guess that is our distorted thinking from our mental illnesses or whatever has caused us to be suicidal. Most people like life well enough, some love it, and probably the vast majority have never even thought about whether they like it or not. They just live.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand finding it so torturous to exist, all I want is to cease existing, I just wish to never suffer in this painful and futile existence ever again, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.