Venting My mother

[endless-void]

I hate how my mother affected all my relationships. I run away from women even if I love them because I can't help it but feel as if they were my mother. I hate my mother for what she's done but I just can't forget about her or get over it. She's always in my mind, normally for the bad, and so is my last girlfriend. And the other, and the other and so on. I am obsessed with my ex the same way I am with my mother. Everything I think, say or do is my mom's fault. I can't have a normal life, really. From the moment I wake up until I go to sleep, all that happens in between and even in my dreams is because of her. She is chocking me, but I am the one letting her do it. How can I make this stop? I don't know, but I have no interest in knowing anything anyway.