UninformedLover
If you see me active on here...its gotten worse...
- Nov 12, 2019
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Now she is ignoring me. Last time this happened she didn't talk to me for two weeks straight. I'm not sure how I feel right now.
I'm really sorry you're going through this situation. Is there any friends or other family you can talk to about this? University resources if you go to one? Self harming doesn't make you any less deserving of love or affection... especially from your own mother. That's awful.
I'll just call her shit out:
When she acts out like that, it's because you had the upper hand. You did something she couldn't control, so she's trying to take power from you and get you back under her control.
I'd bet money she controls with approval as well. If she's happy with you, it's because you're doing something she approves of.
You are not a bit player in The Grand Drama of Her Life. You are not the antagonist who exists only to highlight that she is the protagonist/hero/sacrificing martyr. And you do not exist to be her personal audience--she's clearly giving a performance.
Ignore that shit. Then wait for the next tactic when she realizes this one didn't work.
Does she ever get physically abusive? Do you have a safe place to go if she escalates?
Makes me so sad to read this. When I used to cut it would upset my mum when she seen the marks and would always kiss me and tell me I was hurting enough without harming my precious body. Wise words from such a beautiful soul. I miss her so much. My love to youNow she is ignoring me. Last time this happened she didn't talk to me for two weeks straight. I'm not sure how I feel right now.