My mother never loved me i was a tool from a beggining

[Hans Voralberg]

So after few months from leaving the theraphy i moved from my mother. She told me that she had sex with a Man because she thought he will live her afterwards she probably had my father on thought.So i was Born in wody way possibile She accused me constantly of having sex affairs with my friends with theraphy both woman are over 50 and one of them Sylvia really become mother figure for me. No one ever care so much about me this friendship saved me. My mother thretened me to not help me financially during my law aplication so i just leave her like a Man. I lived with her not for money. I knew she had to never be alone so i want stay to support her as any good son would do for a patent. After my moving out she sent me an e mail that she is going to suicide because i left her take in mind i have 23 years old. My Dean saw screenshot of this e mail and was horrified how parent can torture emotionally their child . I feel sick and in suche terrible state of mind. Completly empty. My parents never loved me. I thought my life is a tragedii but it is fucking comedy. Worst of all is i know how important and precious i am for others and if i Die i left only pain for real . I want being hugged and cry i am do tired

 

[jodes2]

Sorry you're suffering

 

[woknows]

Some people should never ever had children.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you have to endure. It's certainly cruel how people bring life into this world especially when the person is destined to suffer to such a great extent. But I wish you the best, I'm sorry that you feel trapped in this situation.

 

[Pluto]

When growing up, it is normal for us to view parents as Gods. The day when we learn that we were mistaken to trust them is the day the Titanic first hits the iceberg.

 

[nopride86]

It is unfortunate that most people have children for the free emotional and physical labor. It is why I want to CTB too.

Please understand that none of this is your fault or doing. Your mother is mentally ill and cannot control herself or her impulses. It does not mean that you have to be responsible to do it for her, but from a cultural/moral standpoint I know that you may be trapped.

You deserved better, ultimately it is up to you to find a way out one way or the other. As you can see, ctb is my only choice left. Maybe your choice will be the same, or you will find another option. Just know that you are not alone in your situation and that your feelings are valid.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry. It sounds as if you have had to be the parent figure to your mother and not the other way round. Honestly, it just appalls me how some family members treat one another- especially when it is the parents emotionally exploiting their children.

I am glad to hear of your friendship with Sylvia. I have been lucky to have some awesome mother figures too. (My real Mum died.) I hope you are able to stay in touch with her.

You sound like a very caring and compassionate son. It's very admirable that you continue to stand by your Mum. Still, I think it's also important to see what she can be like and try your best not to be emotionally manipulated- you will never have anything to feel guilty about- no matter what course of action she decides to take. It's wonderful that you still do your best for her but keep reminding yourself of that- you haven't abandoned her- you are there for her as much as you can be but you need to live your own life too and you are a good son. Whatever you decide to do with your future, I hope you can find peace.

 

[makethepainstop]

So after few months from leaving the theraphy i moved from my mother. She told me that she had sex with a Man because she thought he will live her afterwards she probably had my father on thought.So i was Born in wody way possibile She accused me constantly of having sex affairs with my friends with theraphy both woman are over 50 and one of them Sylvia really become mother figure for me. No one ever care so much about me this friendship saved me. My mother thretened me to not help me financially during my law aplication so i just leave her like a Man. I lived with her not for money. I knew she had to never be alone so i want stay to support her as any good son would do for a patent. After my moving out she sent me an e mail that she is going to suicide because i left her take in mind i have 23 years old. My Dean saw screenshot of this e mail and was horrified how parent can torture emotionally their child . I feel sick and in suche terrible state of mind. Completly empty. My parents never loved me. I thought my life is a tragedii but it is fucking comedy. Worst of all is i know how important and precious i am for others and if i Die i left only pain for real . I want being hugged and cry i am do tired

I wish I could be there and hug you, (I'm not kidding bro). Sometimes a real hug given by someone who cares, does make one feel a lot better. Sounds silly but I have never been afraid of being laughed at, ok here it comes....I wish we were somewhere that you felt comfortable and secure in, and I could hug you,(firm hug, not rib crunching strength hug), then after a two or three minute hug, I would ask you,"Hey bro, you wanna talk about it?" And for some reason I cannot devine, I think you'd feel better. Love and strength to you in your time of troubles.