Venting My mom thinks I am fucking her ex boyfriend

[SmallKoy]

I seriously cannot make this shit up. My mom is a raging alcoholic and she used to throw me out of the house all the time when I was younger for millions of different "reasons" and her main thing is that she will come into my room and scream at me and I basically just pretend to be asleep. In recent years it's died down a lot but it happens occasionally still. She has less to be mad at me for, because I try to be the best I can be to give her not even a way to make up some reason to be pissed. My mom and I never discuss our personal thoughts or feelings. I seriously cannot name one time I was open about my feelings with my mother or a time where she was open with me. Today I was inquiring about her ex boyfriend who she is friends with and a fight they had. I was asking about it not because I cared about the ex, but because I wanted to understand why she doesn't talk about her feelings. There was also a reason why it was brought up at all but it's honestly not important. She then proceeded to invite her ex over today which was random to me because she said she was mad at him, I pretty much ignored it because I was sick almost all day today and spent hours in the bathroom not knowing if I was gonna throw up. Anyway she came up with this insane story in her head that I am apparently fucking her ex boyfriend and he comes over to our house when she's not here. She asked me if I'm in love with him and said he's brainwashing me etc. I swear I don't even talk to this guy but he has been nothing but nice to me especially throughout when they dated and was nothing but a caring person. Not once did he ever make advanced or do anything disgusting like that. She literally thinks I'm fucking him because I asked about him once today and because he apparently came over without hesitation. What the actual fuck. My life is a joke. Also I know this may make no sense to a lot of people because I'm writing this as am I'm a bit hysterical. This entire thing makes me want to kill myself because I don't even know how I'm going to deal with this and convince her that I'm not fucking her ex. What the actual fuck.

 

[rozeske]

Some people should never have allowed themselves to become parents. If there is a way for you to move out you really should before her sickness swallows you whole. I'm sorry you even had to be in this situation.

 

[SmallKoy]

Some people should never have allowed themselves to become parents. If there is a way for you to move out you really should before her sickness swallows you whole. I'm sorry you even had to be in this situation.

I know. I want to move out ASAP. Just not really possible. Like I said this whole thing was much worse when I was younger but this is just on a different level.

 

[Labyrinth]

I'm sorry to say this, but your mother should be admitted to a psychiatric ward. Blind people only regret their mediocre lives in the last moments of death. Apparently the psychological reasons for your mother to doubt you stem from low self-esteem, as possessive jealousy arises from poor self-care.

The hypothesis that the stepfather has a sexual interest in his girlfriend's daughter is not unreasonable. If you search the internet you will see a collection of incidents. You must have good eyes when evaluating another person.

Some people should never have allowed themselves to become parents. If there is a way for you to move out you really should before her sickness swallows you whole. I'm sorry you even had to be in this situation.

My parents' illness swallowed me and today I am their reflection. I hate who I am.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

I seriously cannot make this shit up. My mom is a raging alcoholic and she used to throw me out of the house all the time when I was younger for millions of different "reasons" and her main thing is that she will come into my room and scream at me and I basically just pretend to be asleep. In recent years it's died down a lot but it happens occasionally still. She has less to be mad at me for, because I try to be the best I can be to give her not even a way to make up some reason to be pissed. My mom and I never discuss our personal thoughts or feelings. I seriously cannot name one time I was open about my feelings with my mother or a time where she was open with me. Today I was inquiring about her ex boyfriend who she is friends with and a fight they had. I was asking about it not because I cared about the ex, but because I wanted to understand why she doesn't talk about her feelings. There was also a reason why it was brought up at all but it's honestly not important. She then proceeded to invite her ex over today which was random to me because she said she was mad at him, I pretty much ignored it because I was sick almost all day today and spent hours in the bathroom not knowing if I was gonna throw up. Anyway she came up with this insane story in her head that I am apparently fucking her ex boyfriend and he comes over to our house when she's not here. She asked me if I'm in love with him and said he's brainwashing me etc. I swear I don't even talk to this guy but he has been nothing but nice to me especially throughout when they dated and was nothing but a caring person. Not once did he ever make advanced or do anything disgusting like that. She literally thinks I'm fucking him because I asked about him once today and because he apparently came over without hesitation. What the actual fuck. My life is a joke. Also I know this may make no sense to a lot of people because I'm writing this as am I'm a bit hysterical. This entire thing makes me want to kill myself because I don't even know how I'm going to deal with this and convince her that I'm not fucking her ex. What the actual fuck.

Jesus christ your mother be wacko,she been watching too much porno plots i reckon with a delusion like that

Idk maybe she secretly gets off to the idea