marabellasol
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- Nov 4, 2023
- 32
i'm all over the place, i don't know if i truly want to even recover, i'm harmful to my loved ones, if i was smart then i would at the very least cut them off
I feel the exact same way at times, at least the "all over the place" part. I'm more committed to trying to recover, but my mind does occasionally bounce back to suicidal thoughts. I hope we can both find peace in recovery, you have my condolences for what it's worth.i'm all over the place, i don't know if i truly want to even recover, i'm harmful to my loved ones, if i was smart then i would at the very least cut them off
Exactly like this, those fucking triggers. And it can sometimes be something so small but next minute you're daydreaming about blowing your head offYeah it's really frustrating. One minute you're having a great day, being active and happy, and then the second you recall of something that triggers the tumor in your psyche where your suicidal thoughts lie, you feel awful for the rest of the day just stewing on your regrets. It's a cycle that's so difficult to stop, even when you're on medication. I'm prescribed antidepressants that I have to take daily and I still have suicidal ideation
i relate to this a lot and hope you can get the support and love you need ♡♡ sending care ;w;i'm all over the place, i don't know if i truly want to even recover, i'm harmful to my loved ones, if i was smart then i would at the very least cut them off
I'll just be walking my dog, thinking about how afterwards I need to finish an assignment, and then I'll just think "what if I just died". I kind of have to laugh at how quickly my mind can turn. Depression is definitely not something that can be cured, it can just be treated.Exactly like this, those fucking triggers. And it can sometimes be something so small but next minute you're daydreaming about blowing your head off
thank you i have no clue what im doing lmao, i've self sabotaged myself, i don't know if there is any going backI feel the exact same way at times, at least the "all over the place" part. I'm more committed to trying to recover, but my mind does occasionally bounce back to suicidal thoughts. I hope we can both find peace in recovery, you have my condolences for what it's worth.
honestly! this sums it up perfectly, i don't know how to explain it to my friends and i don't want to tell the gp to be honestExactly like this, those fucking triggers. And it can sometimes be something so small but next minute you're daydreaming about blowing your head off
I'm in the exact same situation.i'm all over the place, i don't know if i truly want to even recover, i'm harmful to my loved ones, if i was smart then i would at the very least cut them off