he broke off contact but its my fault.
i know when such feelings rage through your mind and heart, you don't really intend to listen any other person and every thing they try to tell seems persuasive. but since i know this, i also know what comes after, after you take a break from this idea of ctb and just exist in the pain for some more time, alone..suddenly that person ( you never be able to forget them ), they take up a space in your life. a healthy space. they become a part of you. and slowly it all starts feeling better. idk how to explain those feelings, one has to make their own mistakes. but i am just here to tell you that take good care of yourself too. all the memories, they reside inside of you, you better not harm them, maybe ?
but wtv you decision be, people are here to help you.