That's it.
I prepared nearly everything for my last trip. On Tusday it will be the end.
I thought of different methods. But on the end it will be hanging.
I want to share some thoughts and wishes that I have for the world.
But first let me say that I managed to let all hate behind me. On the end it was more easy than I thought.
To understand what I want to say I must put some informations of me again in. But I don't want really to be about me. It's just more easy because I know my situation best.
Sometimes there was Disscutions in Germany about if it really harm children if you hit them a little. I hope that more people understand yes it does.
And more than just a little.
I don't understand how it's OK to say if a child do not clean the room or something like that you can hit it. You would do the same to an adult?
Children are even weaker than adults. So we should be even more carefully, but it ends up to do the opposite.
If a child hits a child it's hurts and is not good. But if a adult does it it's even worse. Children feel helpless and so bad that I can't even express it.
This causes weakness never straight. And this can go in to directions. Either in depression or in hating others.
There are some that overcome this. I have respect for this people that really manage to survive child abouse.
If it goes to hate the person eventually do things to hurt others. And so on. It's only possible to stop it when we stop to tread others if children or adults in a better way.
I was lucky in one point that someone helped me to overcome the hate. And this showed me that everyone can change something.
Sometimes it was just a friendly word or a smile that could help me through the day.
It's not enough really to live. Not if you suffer from the problems I and sadly much more people have.
But maybe it will help somebody else.
And know about the people that should help in this situations.
Sadly in my situation they failed. My parents admit that they hit me and some other things. The judge said it's not child abouse even when there was pictures from wounds.
Because my parents didn't know what to do with a difficult child like me.
That was one big point in my life when I lost my last hope.
Not just that they didn't help me. They said it's my fault. Everyone I bag never give a child the fault of abouse. Seriously never ever.
There is nothing a child can do to deserve to be treated like trash. We shouldn't forget that we are all humans.
This is my biggest wish. And if somehow the post helps even one more person to understand how important it is to stop child abuse it had at least a little sense that I suffered.
I also believe that the only way to reduce suicide is to reduce the situations that make people to suffer. If it's to a special point it's to late to help.
I write only one situation. There are many other things that someone can do. For example to go against bully...
It would be a list without ending. But basically it's to reduce hate.
I know it's a bit long. But if you read till the end I thank you for listening.
I wish all of you everything good. What ever path you choose.
I prepared nearly everything for my last trip. On Tusday it will be the end.
I thought of different methods. But on the end it will be hanging.
I want to share some thoughts and wishes that I have for the world.
But first let me say that I managed to let all hate behind me. On the end it was more easy than I thought.
To understand what I want to say I must put some informations of me again in. But I don't want really to be about me. It's just more easy because I know my situation best.
Sometimes there was Disscutions in Germany about if it really harm children if you hit them a little. I hope that more people understand yes it does.
And more than just a little.
I don't understand how it's OK to say if a child do not clean the room or something like that you can hit it. You would do the same to an adult?
Children are even weaker than adults. So we should be even more carefully, but it ends up to do the opposite.
If a child hits a child it's hurts and is not good. But if a adult does it it's even worse. Children feel helpless and so bad that I can't even express it.
This causes weakness never straight. And this can go in to directions. Either in depression or in hating others.
There are some that overcome this. I have respect for this people that really manage to survive child abouse.
If it goes to hate the person eventually do things to hurt others. And so on. It's only possible to stop it when we stop to tread others if children or adults in a better way.
I was lucky in one point that someone helped me to overcome the hate. And this showed me that everyone can change something.
Sometimes it was just a friendly word or a smile that could help me through the day.
It's not enough really to live. Not if you suffer from the problems I and sadly much more people have.
But maybe it will help somebody else.
And know about the people that should help in this situations.
Sadly in my situation they failed. My parents admit that they hit me and some other things. The judge said it's not child abouse even when there was pictures from wounds.
Because my parents didn't know what to do with a difficult child like me.
That was one big point in my life when I lost my last hope.
Not just that they didn't help me. They said it's my fault. Everyone I bag never give a child the fault of abouse. Seriously never ever.
There is nothing a child can do to deserve to be treated like trash. We shouldn't forget that we are all humans.
This is my biggest wish. And if somehow the post helps even one more person to understand how important it is to stop child abuse it had at least a little sense that I suffered.
I also believe that the only way to reduce suicide is to reduce the situations that make people to suffer. If it's to a special point it's to late to help.
I write only one situation. There are many other things that someone can do. For example to go against bully...
It would be a list without ending. But basically it's to reduce hate.
I know it's a bit long. But if you read till the end I thank you for listening.
I wish all of you everything good. What ever path you choose.
