So, I'm not sure how to come on here and express my journey with my thoughts and feelings with suicide.
Recently, I had come to find out that a few ex friends, my family members, and other people in the community tried to and continue to try to humiliate me and ruin my life by sharing personal content with my current employers and potential friends and guys that I liked. I've been harrassed at work and humiliated by a lot of people. Now I have no criminal record or even anything shady. So the fact that this is happening, and that it's been happening for a few years, completely killed me. During the times when I would suspect that something wasn't right, my family members wold gaslight me and even pushed to the point of having to go to a crisis center for help.
I eventually went into inpatient care where the bullying continued because the director of pharmacy there was actually related to my aunt. So, I never got any help there. And after my inpatient care things got worse. Which is why I'm here. I'm on the precipice of comitting suicide. Because everyone that I try to get healing from, even a few therapists, completely dismissed me and my experience. It's hard.
And with my employers being apart of this as well. I'm terrified of getting another job and the torture continues. There's so much I have been through during this quarantining and covid related restrictions. I feel trapped and hopeless and like I'm suffocating. I'm trying to keep my head up by listening to music, and movies I love, etc. But sometimes it isn't enough.
Recently, I had come to find out that a few ex friends, my family members, and other people in the community tried to and continue to try to humiliate me and ruin my life by sharing personal content with my current employers and potential friends and guys that I liked. I've been harrassed at work and humiliated by a lot of people. Now I have no criminal record or even anything shady. So the fact that this is happening, and that it's been happening for a few years, completely killed me. During the times when I would suspect that something wasn't right, my family members wold gaslight me and even pushed to the point of having to go to a crisis center for help.
I eventually went into inpatient care where the bullying continued because the director of pharmacy there was actually related to my aunt. So, I never got any help there. And after my inpatient care things got worse. Which is why I'm here. I'm on the precipice of comitting suicide. Because everyone that I try to get healing from, even a few therapists, completely dismissed me and my experience. It's hard.
And with my employers being apart of this as well. I'm terrified of getting another job and the torture continues. There's so much I have been through during this quarantining and covid related restrictions. I feel trapped and hopeless and like I'm suffocating. I'm trying to keep my head up by listening to music, and movies I love, etc. But sometimes it isn't enough.
