lackadazeE
Member
- Jul 29, 2023
- 32
I've been stuck at my job for a few months now, unable to quit because it was set up as a partnership with my school. I've had many panic attacks while working and have been scolded by superiors/supervisors/teachers at my school for spending too much time in the bathrooms (most of the time I'm in there because I feel physically or mentally ill) I understand I'm supposed to be working at my job but I was told very condescendingly that I could ruin the program for others who would be interested in working here, and it's like, I don't even want to work here. I was given no proper training, orientation was a joke ("think of the guests as the audience. You're putting on a play, so act out your part perfectly") I'm a custodian of sorts, the analogy is honestly quite stupid. I'm probably not fit for this job, trying to use the phone to call for help led to me crying the bathroom for like twenty minutes and even now, weeks later, I'm nursing a headache and trying to stop myself from throwing up (this sounds like hangover symptoms lol. I promise I didn't drink this is just all natural) I understand jobs aren't supposed to be enjoyable but I just needed some advice on how to get through this. I assume I'll be working at this job until I graduate in a month or two. So any words of encouragement or something would be greatly appreciated. Im really not sure I can go on with this anymore, every day my intrusive thoughts just get worse and I wonder what it'd be like to just end it all in front of everyone.