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HeavenOnlyKnows
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- Apr 17, 2022
- 8
It's weird. I have every intention of
CTB before the summer is over, yet I can't stop flossing my teeth. It's such a little thing, comparatively (compared to not showering regularly, which is a huge tipoff to other people of your mental state when you probably don't want them to know), but I don't feel ready for bed unless I've cleaned my teeth and gums thoroughly. I'm sure the coroner will be pleased.
I suppose hygiene rituals are the only things that make me feel in control. I wish that it was as easy to live a long, healthy life as it is to prevent tartar buildup. But it's not, so I brush my teeth even as I approach the end. To remind myself that at the very least, I did try to get better even when it ultimately was pointless.
CTB before the summer is over, yet I can't stop flossing my teeth. It's such a little thing, comparatively (compared to not showering regularly, which is a huge tipoff to other people of your mental state when you probably don't want them to know), but I don't feel ready for bed unless I've cleaned my teeth and gums thoroughly. I'm sure the coroner will be pleased.
I suppose hygiene rituals are the only things that make me feel in control. I wish that it was as easy to live a long, healthy life as it is to prevent tartar buildup. But it's not, so I brush my teeth even as I approach the end. To remind myself that at the very least, I did try to get better even when it ultimately was pointless.