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WornOutLife
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- Mar 22, 2020
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My grandpa is very ill. He's 91 years old and has been in hospital for 3 days. Doctors said he won't recover and will probably die in a few days or weeks.
The thing is, I'm planning to ctb on January, 21st but I'm doubting more than ever because it would be terrible for my dad (my grandpa's son) if he and I died almost at the same time. It doesn't matter if there is some distance between the days and weeks. It will still be traumatic!!!
It seems life wants be to live longer and I'm so sorry for my grandpa. He was a great human being. He was even at war!!!! Almost a century of life! What a madness!
Yet, as every day passes by, I find it harder to keep on living. I wonder what the hell will happen with my life.
Just wanted to vent about this! Thank you very much for reading me! :)
The thing is, I'm planning to ctb on January, 21st but I'm doubting more than ever because it would be terrible for my dad (my grandpa's son) if he and I died almost at the same time. It doesn't matter if there is some distance between the days and weeks. It will still be traumatic!!!
It seems life wants be to live longer and I'm so sorry for my grandpa. He was a great human being. He was even at war!!!! Almost a century of life! What a madness!
Yet, as every day passes by, I find it harder to keep on living. I wonder what the hell will happen with my life.
Just wanted to vent about this! Thank you very much for reading me! :)
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