My "GOODBYE" letter maybe some can relate.

[evey8112]

EDIT: dont know why i am posting this but maybe some of you can relate. This came off the dome and was not rewritten.


To my family and those effected.

First, I want to clarify this was a result of my own suffering and nobody could have told me otherwise not to
end it because at this point of typing this letter the stresses,anxiety and depression is too much to bare. I have utterly
fucked up my life. Also this society of fake and disgusting people although I know they are just playing their roles makes me sick.
I have had an interesting life to say the lease. I enjoyed my early childhood, playing outside without a worry
in the world as the "World" had not corrupted my mind and the stresses of this sick society we live in had not made
an effect yet. Then Mom and dad separated and I felt lost,confused and somewhat traumatized. North Carolina was a new start which at first
was challenging but I started to like my new life. I enjoyed the walks outside in nature and the freedom too be myself in a way. In middle school
was when I started to really see the world as it is. I knew I was different and still can't say exactly how or why but I know I am. I was introduced
to the "dark" areas of the internet and got addicted to porn early around 12-13 and has since destroyed my self esteem and is an addiction I have begged
god to take away from me or heal me from. The fake bullshit people post on social media and the need to have something better then the other person makes
me gag. Its so far from truth, and so far away from who we really are which is fragments of gods beautiful energy. This world is too sick for me to be apart of.
People might call me selfish or a coward but is it not just as selfish making someone live in pain and suffering everyday just because you want them around?
I am choosing my destiny and it may not be what "society" portrays as great but I am glad I have the courage to take it into my own hands and not be trapped in a box like most people.
I am not saying people should end their lives, because you can get out but I am too deep in for that now. I believe I came into this life for
self discovery and I have self discovered who I really am but this human side of me is so far from that I can't live in this shell of a human anymore. I feel
I have completed my mission and always knew from a young age I would die young I certainly did not think it would be by my own hand but I guess the universe
has worked it out that way. Please please please do not blame each other or what you could have done because all of you could not have done anything to prevent
this. I planned this out for about 5 years now and finally it has arrived. I fell in love with trading and in love with the "money" one can make but come to
find out money does not cure pain its just a bandage over stab wound. I have grown spiritually and know my true mission.


Dad: You did your best and did everything you could to help me. Your my one and true friend in this life I feel a connection to you that
I feel with nobody else. I am so sorry I have to do this and I know you do not derserve it but i can't deal with this pain anymore and
I refuse to become a pill popper or junkie depended on drugs from the pharmacy or the streets to keep me alive. I love you with everything
I have and I hope one day you can forgive me for this. Please do not blame yourself there is nothing you or anyone else could have done to
prevent this its been a long time coming. Just know ill always be around when I can and I wont be suffering anymore. I look forward to the day
we meet again. Please use my story to raise awareness about mental health and to raise awareness to help and save others. Im sorry dad. - Your son



Mom: Please do not blame yourself mom as there is nothing you could have done. I know your struggle with your own battles and I hope you will overcome them.
I did this I took control of my destiny and I did this if you want to blame anyone blame me. I am sorry for any pain this will cause you. Ill be around when
I can but I can't deal with this pain anymore. Please share my story with others and raise awareness about mental health and use my death to help others.

 

[Reallysad]

Have to agree about the fake bullshit on social media and people making out their life's are wonderful when they are not it also makes me sick.
Best of luck to you my friend

 

[evey8112]

Have to agree about the fake bullshit on social media and people making out their life's are wonderful when they are not it also makes me sick.
Best of luck to you my friend

thank you. Yea "keeping up with the jones" as people say. If you are not good looking or have money specially as a male your nothing says our society and where i am in western culture its really bad. this is why we have mass shootings people are tired of this bullshit.

 

[blvck]

I have the addiction too ... since I was 16. it's destroyed my life and all the actions that stemmed from it make me hate myself. It's a bad addiction and I don't encourage anyone to get involved with it. I really hate porn and the porn industry. And when I see ppl that treat it as normal, it makes me feel tremendous disgust towards them. I'm a girl, and its really made me distrust all men. Because they genuinely see nothing wrong with it.

I don't want to live anymore. I made too many bad choices and I don't think I can fix them anymore. I have to be fake and pretend to be ok and mentally stable around others, but I hate it. It's exhausting, so I just isolate myself and avoid everyone.

I try to distract myself with useless things, but it doesn't make it any better. My problems ain't going away. And even if I was somehow able to clean up my life, I know I will eventually relapse again in the future and it will all go down the drain.

it's a sad life. I get (rightly) punished for it, but I really don't care anymore. I would rather just die and pay off all my debts.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your wish to leave is understandable. I could never want to exist in a world that is as cruel and horrific as this. I hope that you find what you wish for.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

EDIT: dont know why i am posting this but maybe some of you can relate. This came off the dome and was not rewritten.


To my family and those effected.

First, I want to clarify this was a result of my own suffering and nobody could have told me otherwise not to
end it because at this point of typing this letter the stresses,anxiety and depression is too much to bare. I have utterly
fucked up my life. Also this society of fake and disgusting people although I know they are just playing their roles makes me sick.
I have had an interesting life to say the lease. I enjoyed my early childhood, playing outside without a worry
in the world as the "World" had not corrupted my mind and the stresses of this sick society we live in had not made
an effect yet. Then Mom and dad separated and I felt lost,confused and somewhat traumatized. North Carolina was a new start which at first
was challenging but I started to like my new life. I enjoyed the walks outside in nature and the freedom too be myself in a way. In middle school
was when I started to really see the world as it is. I knew I was different and still can't say exactly how or why but I know I am. I was introduced
to the "dark" areas of the internet and got addicted to porn early around 12-13 and has since destroyed my self esteem and is an addiction I have begged
god to take away from me or heal me from. The fake bullshit people post on social media and the need to have something better then the other person makes
me gag. Its so far from truth, and so far away from who we really are which is fragments of gods beautiful energy. This world is too sick for me to be apart of.
People might call me selfish or a coward but is it not just as selfish making someone live in pain and suffering everyday just because you want them around?
I am choosing my destiny and it may not be what "society" portrays as great but I am glad I have the courage to take it into my own hands and not be trapped in a box like most people.
I am not saying people should end their lives, because you can get out but I am too deep in for that now. I believe I came into this life for
self discovery and I have self discovered who I really am but this human side of me is so far from that I can't live in this shell of a human anymore. I feel
I have completed my mission and always knew from a young age I would die young I certainly did not think it would be by my own hand but I guess the universe
has worked it out that way. Please please please do not blame each other or what you could have done because all of you could not have done anything to prevent
this. I planned this out for about 5 years now and finally it has arrived. I fell in love with trading and in love with the "money" one can make but come to
find out money does not cure pain its just a bandage over stab wound. I have grown spiritually and know my true mission.


Dad: You did your best and did everything you could to help me. Your my one and true friend in this life I feel a connection to you that
I feel with nobody else. I am so sorry I have to do this and I know you do not derserve it but i can't deal with this pain anymore and
I refuse to become a pill popper or junkie depended on drugs from the pharmacy or the streets to keep me alive. I love you with everything
I have and I hope one day you can forgive me for this. Please do not blame yourself there is nothing you or anyone else could have done to
prevent this its been a long time coming. Just know ill always be around when I can and I wont be suffering anymore. I look forward to the day
we meet again. Please use my story to raise awareness about mental health and to raise awareness to help and save others. Im sorry dad. - Your son



Mom: Please do not blame yourself mom as there is nothing you could have done. I know your struggle with your own battles and I hope you will overcome them.
I did this I took control of my destiny and I did this if you want to blame anyone blame me. I am sorry for any pain this will cause you. Ill be around when
I can but I can't deal with this pain anymore. Please share my story with others and raise awareness about mental health and use my death to help others.

I like it and it shows that it is from your heart, which is what truly matters, or at least should matter, in this world.